That morning I couldn't find me school shoes, neither my tie. So instead of being dropped off to school. I went by my aunt's house.

The day was pretty boring. Just me drawing or watching videos.

It was only me and my older cousin alone at home.

Later on, my cousins' grandpa came over. When he found out I wasn't in school that day, he called me downstairs under the house.

He was talking to me by the table. Babbling jokes about where my school shoes could have gone.

"Remember what I told you the other night?"

The two nights ago he had called me on my phone when he got my number from one of my cousins. We had a little chat, nothing too serious. At the end of the call he said;

"I love you"

And asked for me to say it back.

Knowing myself, no matter who it is, I never say 'I love you' to a male. Especially an older one.

I simply laughed it off and hang up after him practically begging me to.

Fast forward, present time.

"Say it" 

I didn't want to...

 But since he was an adult, I simply said I didn't remember what he said to me.

He looked rather disappointed but I paid no mind.

A while after, my cousin came to talk to him. She sat at the other end of the table leaving one sit next to him.

He looked up at me and told me to sit. And since I'm not allowed upstairs if no one is there, I did. 

I didn't want to be there. I don't like socializing that much, especially since I don't know the man.

His hand went on my knee. I didn't pay attention to the gesture because I was sure nothing was too wrong with it.

But it wasn't there for long.

He hands slowly crept up my thigh after each sentence he spoke. The more it went up, the more I became uncomfortable.

Was my cousin not seeing this?

Probably not because my leg was under the table.

By the time it was a centimeter away from my crotch, I quickly excused myself and said I was going upstairs to eat.

When I got up, I saw his eyes. It looked filled of anger and disappointment. It shocked me a little when his hand was on my leg momentarily before he took it off. 

I quickly went upstairs and shut the door.

My mind raced and my heart beated fast.

"What...the...f*ck...was that...?!"

I went straight to my phone and messaged my father and told him what had happened. 

"Stay upstairs until aunty gets home"

So I did.

I lost my appetite amd couldn't eat my lunch.

I'd have to wait three hours until aunty's home

He called me verbally to come downstairs but I kept making excuses as to why I can't.

I want to puke

Some minutes later, I went to sleep just as my dad had told me.

Ring

I looked at my phone and saw it was him calling me. I put my phone on DO NOT DISTURB and went back to sleep.

And hour later, I heard the door open and footsteps. At first, I thought it was my cousin until I heard them coming towards me.

I felt a hand grab my wrist. I sprung from the bed and saw that it was him. 

He smiled, picked up a water from the case and told me to come downstairs.

I simply smiled back and when he left, went on my phone.

5 missed calls

From him alone

I'm not going outside

I constantly checked the cameras, hoping he'd go home. He usually do around this hour. So I sat and ate my lunch that I didn't eat.

He finally went home.

I crept downstairs and checked my surroundings.

He is gone

I went into the hammock a little away from the table and relaxed myself.

Later on, my aunt found out from my mom of what my dad told her.

"Block him"

And so I did.