I don't like boys

But it's not to say I like girls 

I just find males to be shitty, terrible, and annoying.

Everytime I tell someone I don't like boys they're always like;

"You like girls?" 

Well...not romantically anyway.

And...that brings me to my situation. Not that I like girls to say. Fair skin attracts me for whatever reason.

No matter the gender, I still go wild for a light skin. 

Her skin was so perfect in my eyes. Just the right shade. Turns a delicious tint of red when it's touched. I couldn't resist it.

When I first met her, I loved her immediately.

Well not her exactly but her body.

I don't usually go after body, I prefer personality.

But I couldn't help myself. She was shaped so heavenly.

It wasn't for long until those feelings went away.

I'm not gay

But why, why are they coming back...?

After a year, these emotions are flooding back in and not only about her. 

There's this girl I saw

Much taller and a little darker. She too looked pretty. I hadn't exactly seen her properly but from my distorted memory, she looked beautiful.

I wouldn't exactly say I like her. Again, not like me at all, I like her looks. I couldn't say personality because I don't know her. What I did know was that she did some terrible things before that I couldn't justice if my subconscious wanted to.

"Can I kiss you"

The voice asked,

"Have you kissed a gurl before?"

"Friends with benefits?"

Before I knew it, she pulled me atop her and kissed me. I lost track of how long we made out. I stopped her and said I didn't want to get caught and walked away.

I jumped up from my sleep, unaware of what time it was.

"What the actual f*ck?!"

That's so unlike me....

I didn't have the heart to tell her, especially not that dream. She hated that girl; I assume.

How could I possibly think this way about both of them?

"I'm so f*cked...." 

I kept quiet about

I knew she'd kill me if I ever told her that