Today was a really good day. I hung out with Celica for most of it, and now that we’re on break, I think that’s going to be a pattern. I still haven’t told her about my feelings, for a couple reasons (not cowardice!!), but for once it feels like I don’t really have to say anything. She just…gets me.

We even hung out at my place (actually inside it for the first time), and Celica loooved the home library just like I thought she would. Girl was drawn to it like a moth to flame. Seriously, I walked in the house, turned around to lock the door, and by the time I’d turned back around she was gone. I knew where she’d gone right away, and sure enough, when I headed upstairs to the library, there she was sitting on one of the stools, all focused with her jet black curls brushed over her shoulder. God, she’s attractive.

I also finally talked to Adrian. It went over surprisingly well. I told him I have feelings for Celica, and he totally understood. He said yeah, he thinks she’s pretty and he likes spending time with her, but he’s content just being friends. I’m so fucking relieved.

I still have to talk to Summer. That one’s going to be way harder. She already knows I like Celica too, but she hasn’t exactly been nice about it, and I can’t pursue this without looking like the biggest hypocrite on the planet. I kind of am the biggest hypocrite on the planet.

Plus, I used to think of Summer as pretty level-headed, but lately I think of her as this hotheaded psycho lady and I’m not sure who she actually is anymore. Sometimes I overthink so much I start to distort people in my head, and I can’t tell where the real person stops and the imagined one starts.

Alright, I admit it. It’s going to take me forever to actually talk to her. At least I have plenty of time before we start next semester.

-Hayley