" Hey. " I greeted him slowly, while I chewed on my lip. " Hey. " He replied with a gentle smile as he breathed out deeply like he had been holding his breath till now. 

Those familiar blue eyes of his mirrored the concern on his face. Looking away swiftly, I asked him, " Hot chocolate? " 

With a small chuckle, I heard him say he would love to have some and with a nod, I turned my back to him as silence fell back on us. 

I worked slowly and carefully, not wanting to finish because if I did, I'd have to face him. 

What had come over me, I did not know. But reliving those moments in my head was torture all over again. His words triggered exactly the worst memories that I'd tried to suppress for so long. 

The horrible nights of lurking in the shadows of the forest, my frail body almost threatening to become one with them. Or the times when I sat on the pavement under the streetlights for warmth when the cold was ready to steal my consciousness from me. They still loomed over me as I tried to push them away unsuccessfully. 

But no matter the situation, I felt ashamed that I had lashed out at him. Sure, his words had triggered me, but the fact that I let my tears take over. I was mad at myself for doing so.

I had never cried about my past. Never. Not even to Daen or Pedro. Self-pity was more of my thing.

I hated it when people fawned over me unnecessarily. Like I was a fragile doll that would break if not kept safe at all times. But it hurts when you have no one to talk to, especially during your darkest times.

It had barely been a week since Felix arrived and I felt way too comfortable around him. I'd be lying if I said that it didn't worry me. It was probably because he was a werewolf too, that's why I felt at ease around him. 

Other humans that I had befriended be it during my work or when I went around town, I always distanced myself from them. 

It was a superficial relationship that I maintained with them since they could never understand what I was going through. 

But this dark auburn haired boy that sat on my porch felt different. The laughable irony was that I felt safe around him. So much for trying to maintain vigilance since he was from another pack. 

Looking at the cups in front of me I sighed as I lifted them. The warm smell welcoming the soothing feelings that temporarily replaced my dread as it hit my nose. 

Walking over to Felix, I handed him his cup as I sat next to him. Both of us took the first few sips in silence as if we were both figuring out how to start the conversation. 

The least I could do is save him the trouble, I thought as I turned to him to speak. He had decided to do the same and looking into each other's eyes and stuttered. 

Finally getting a grip on myself, I started, " Felix, I apologise for all the trouble I caused. " He stiffened as I called out his name and frowned when I apologized. His brows furrowed deeper as I opened my mouth to talk again. 

" What? " I questioned. 

" If someone here has to apologise it should be me. I talked as if I knew everything about you which I couldn't be more wrong about. And I'm truly sorry for triggering you in the process. " He said, his eyes not leaving mine.

My eyes flickered over his face as I took in his emotions. It almost seemed as if he was angry. But at himself. 

" Still... I owe you an explanation since I put you through all of that. " I said as I looked down at my cup, my messy hair coming loose as it slid down to hide my face. 

" Unless you think I'm bothering you, that is. " I rambled swiftly as I suddenly looked up at him, worried that I might be oversharing. 

He may not even want to have anything to do with me. The last thing he would want in that case was to know more about me, I thought as I panicked.