I gained more weight recently since my heart was crushed, and I realize I love too hard. I’m more worried that my heart will break even more than I realize, so love must not be for me. But we can be better, no I can be better. The heart can heal so my feelings will too.

So~ what happened? Why are we together? Why does this feel wrong? I’m confused… 

So to explain, I needed a ride to work, my mom wasn’t feeling well and my sister works a mile away and I needed a ride. Went on my app and appointed an Uber, that was simple. The next thing that came after was the person taking me… it was him, looking back and forth at the profile and car. The car was correct but the person wasn’t.

“Kile, come on.”

“Why are you…here?”

“I took my uncle’s phone.”

Clearly looking at my phone but the time I needed to get to work was getting closer, so I took a breath and went in from the back.

“Sit up here.”

“But-”

“Please.”

So I did what he wanted and sat beside him in the passenger seat, the ride there was in complete awkward silence.