I've always wondered what I did. What did I do to have this life. What did I do to deserve this, to feel this, to be this.

Have I wronged someone? Have I hurt someone? Have I done something that affected someone negatively?

What in the world could I have done???

Why?

WHY?

Why do people just feel the need to use me? To make me feel like shit? Make me feel guilty? Make me feel useless?

I...

I still don't understand..

Why would you do that to me?

Is something wrong? Did I do something wrong? Is there anyway to fix it?

I did everything for you. Even though you didn't ask, I still tried. For you.

So why would you turn me around and take out a knife?

After everything you did to me. I forgave you. I was still there for you. No matter what. 

But now...now you took things too far. Way too far.

Why was I the target? Why am I always the target?

Is being nice a bad thing? Being supportive, loving, loyal, caring. A good person. Is that too much for you? Am I too nice to you? To everyone?

All my life.....

This is the thanks I get for being there for you.

Preschool, public primary school, private primary school, secondary school....

What more can I do? What more can I give?

I'm tired of it all.