I'm out of breath and I'm falling behind. I can't keep up with the rest of the students, I can't even finish a full lap or do at least ten push-ups. 

Professor Cain is definently taking notice and so is everyone else, and as a matter of fact, it's starting to get to me. 

How everyone else looks at me like, looks down on me and laughs at me. 

It's not like I haven't been trying my best to get in better shape. I've been working out, I've been on a good diet but no matter how much I try, I can never recover, wether it's from a simple workout or in general. 

I'm falling down an endless hill I'll never be able to get up from and it hurts both physically and emotionally. 

On top of that, every PE lesson is worse than the last, I wish I could sit them out but I don't wanna get in trouble.

Even though there's nothing to learn in theory, I obviously still wanna stay at the academy.

The library of seyra has everything I could ever ask for and I've learned even more about magic, I even learned more about my own curse. 

Scratch that, I've learned about curses. Curses are unique in a sense, their essentially very powerfull magic but they work independetly of anything else.

And if someone were to cast one on someone, if they somehow could, It would cost them everything and I mean everything. Almost like they've become a living spell.

As for my school life here in general, I don't really have any friends. It's been a couple of months but I'm still to afraid to really talk to other students, outside of school.

However there is supposed to be a Halloween Party next week, where I could get to know some students more, maybe even Gale or Mira!

And if I haven't made any friends by then...

I guess I just won't, I've been on my own so far anyways. I'm sure I'll be fine for my remaining time. 

I shouldn't think like that though.

Anyways I think I spaced out for to long, PE seems to be done and well... everyone is gone already. We're done for today, I think I'll head to bed then. Even though It hasn't even gone dark yet. 

On second though, I think I'll stay here for a bit. 

It's so quiet, the wind is giving me goose bumps but I feel slight comfort for some reason... and It's so peaceful. 

It's times like this that give me comfort.