I don't want to be an option for him. I don't want that while we are with each other, he's thinking of her at the same time.

Am I selfish for wanting it?

But why am I the one who's suffering? It's like my heart is shattering into pieces.

He's with me when I don't know what to do.

He's with me when I don't have anyone to listen to my rants.

He's with me when I don't have anyone else with me.

He is my only fan.

He has supported me all this time.

Hence, I said that. Sumobra ba ko? Mali ba ang mga sinabi ko? Hindi ko ba dapat inisip 'yon? But how do I know if it is wrong or right to feel that way? Ano bang dapat kong gawin?

Pagkapihit ko ng knob sa CR, biglang may humila rin nito mula sa loob—it's her, the fine lady in her trousers and a simple shirt, wearing the apron of the K-café.

"Ayos ka lang ba?" she asked me.

I lower my head. I can't answer; I can't talk. I tried to shake my head when she held both of my shoulders. She's trying to see my face, and then I hear her heave a sigh.

"Binaggit ni Han 'yung kay Lena?" she asked, making me look at her. "Alam mo,matagal ng nangyari 'yon at gusto ni Lena, maging masaya si Han.Simula ng dumating ka, nakikita ko na masaya si Han sa'yo,na gusto ka niya at totoo yung nararamdaman niya sa'yo.Nasasayo na lang kung maniniwala ka sa sinasabi ko," she added before letting go of me.

I immediately go to the restroom to calm myself down. I need to calm down and think before I decide. I don't want to regret whatever I'm going to say to him later.