Alonso’s P.O.V.

Morning, The Hotel of Dawn

I woke up to my body halfway off of the bed. I sighed and looked at the top half of the bed to see Kari and Claire asleep. Those two must have slept nicely. They even had space enough space to move their feet and kick me all night. So I know they were comfortable. 

I got out of bed and walked toward my phone and Claire's phones, charging in the corner. I reached for my phone only to receive a slight flash in my face by Claire’s. When my vision cleared my body paused. Someone sent her a message.

“Next time lunch will be on me. What do you have in mind?”

She is moving on, after all. I felt a tinge in my heart. This is strange. I should feel happy for her, but I feel a slight pain in my heart for some reason. I may have been wrong when I told myself that I was entirely over her.

I looked back at my phone. I always went with my invitee system to forget about everything, but now I am facing it again, this time away from my invitees. I promised that I would stop this. I did, but the idea of being without her engulfed me with sadness.

“Alonso” I looked in front of me to see Kari with a puzzled look on her face. “What time is it?”

I want to drown my sorrows in meaningless emotion. To do so, I would participate in actions that would do nothing but damage my relationship with the woman in front of me. Would she be numb like I? Or warm like the sun? Would she fall for the false sense of love, or would she shut me out from any sentimental feelings?

No

What am I thinking?

This woman is not even interested in me

and I am contemplating ways to numb myself through her.

She walked towards me causing me to quickly switch off the screen.

"I think that maybe-" Her eyes looked into mine before they pointed towards the balcony. Those very actions is what stopped me from finishing my sentence. What is she going to say to me? 

Kari walke donto the balcony. I followed not too far from behind her. She leaned her body forward and focused her gaze on the city. "Kari," I slid close the door behind me.

"It must be tough," she said,

"What are you walking about?"

"Learning to love again when you are not able to be with the person you have feelings for." She looked at me. "I know that look. That is how I know how you feel." I leaned against the banister beside her.

"I do not want to talk about it."

"Talking about it helps. It is better than finding ways to numb yourself." My brows furrowed.

"You say that as if you did not scold us yesterday-"

"I did. What I am trying to tell you is that when you are up to it, you should talk about it."

That’s right she lost the woman she loved

"What do I do?' I asked.

"That is up to you."

"Up to me. Kari, I hardly know what I am doing. Just two months ago we were sharing a bed. Now she wants me to pretend nothing happened. I am losing my mind at this point."

"Was coming with us your way of trying to get her back?" I arched my brow. Hell no, trying to get Claire back was not the only reason why I decided to come along.

"I just wanted her to be safe and not get into trouble. I didn’t think my feelings would bother me, but she appears to be moving on.”

“What do you think will help you?”

“I just want to hear her say that she doesn't love me. That is all I want to hear, but I can hardly speak about dating without feeling weird. Six months ago we were dating, and we broke up, but we started this sexual shit, and I-"

I want everything to stop.

Should I go back to Planet 300? 

Kari’s hands gently wiped my eyes. My body no longer felt numb. Instead, I could feel everything again.

I am crying

Why am I crying?

"We can discuss this when we are alone again, but I want you to know that it is not a bad thing you came here. If you did not come, it probably would have been awkward honestly." She chuckled. A smile came to my lips.

"Yeah" I question many things about this woman. When she came, I thought I was being tested by life, but it feels more like I am having someone show me things I never noticed. The balcony door slid open.

"Hey love birds, we should get down to breakfast," Claire said behind me.

A blush came to Kari's face. "We are not interested in each other," She looked back at me.

"Come," she said and walked past me.