Monday was slow.
It always was after Sunday. The kind of slow that felt like the city itself was exhaling. The rain had stopped, but the streets still shone, like they were holding on to the memory of last night’s wet. Traffic moved, but without hurry. No shouting, no horns, just the steady rhythm of a place that had decided to be quiet for a while.
Kenji liked Mondays.
He opened the shop early anyway. He always did. Habit. He was not sure anymore if he opened for customers or if he opened for the room. The room felt calmer with the lights on, with the pot warm, with hands moving. He understood that feeling.
He stirred the broth and watched the surface move in soft circles. He tasted it, nodded once, adjusted nothing.
The corner shrine was where it always was.
Miles’s brass coin. Logan’s scratched car wash token. The keychain from the trucker’s wife. Daniel’s photo, the blue plastic cross. The napkin with the line you are allowed to stop before you break. The little paper with the crisis number Emily left. The postcard that said Dear Me Do not disappear. The laughing woman on the hood of the truck. The small promise in each story.
And, sitting there alone like a quiet moon, Martha’s seat. Two cups from last night, cleaned and dried, placed back in their exact spot. He didn’t serve them in the morning. Sunday was theirs. But he kept the space ready.
At 11:20 a.m., the bell over the door rang.
Kenji looked up.
It wasn’t Miles. It wasn’t Emily. It wasn’t Logan. Not any of the faces the shop now recognized.
It was a girl. Maybe nineteen. Maybe twenty. Hard to tell, because she looked both young and worn at the same time. Her hair was pulled into a loose braid. She wore a big jacket that didn’t match the rest of her clothes, like it had belonged to someone else. She carried a tote bag pressed tight under one arm like she didn’t trust the world not to grab it.
She stepped in and paused, eyes adjusting to the warm light.
Kenji nodded. Welcome.
She nodded back. Her voice was small. You got food.
Yes, he said.
Is it expensive, she asked.
No, he said.
She let out a slow breath like that had been the question she was really asking.
Sit, he told her.
She sat near the middle. Not far. Not in the corner. Somewhere she could see the front door and the window. Somewhere she could leave fast if she had to. He had seen that posture before.
He poured tea. She didn’t touch it right away. She watched him, not with fear exactly, more like an animal in a new yard, waiting to see if anything would snap.
What would you like, he asked.
I don’t know, she said.
Warm, he said.
Yes, she said.
Okay, he said.
He built a bowl the way you build trust. Slow. Obvious. Nothing sudden. Letting her see everything go in. He placed daikon in the broth, then tofu, then egg. Fish cake last. He didn’t crowd the bowl. He left space.
When he set it in front of her, steam rose straight up and touched her face. Her shoulders fell an inch.
Try, he said.
She picked up the chopsticks like she hadn’t held them in a long time. The first bite went in careful, almost suspicious. She chewed. Swallowed. Went still.
Then she exhaled like someone who had been clenching her entire body for days.
Okay, she whispered. Okay. That’s… yeah. That’s good.
Kenji poured her tea. You walked far, he said.
She nodded. My place is like twenty blocks out. Bus was late. So I just came.
You have work, he asked.
Not today, she said.
He waited.
After a moment, she said, I used to work mornings at a bookstore. But they shut down last month. The landlord wants to flip it into something with more seating and mood lights and twelve dollar matcha. So.
Kenji nodded. I am sorry.
It’s okay, she said, then made a face. No. It’s not. I liked that place.
He leaned his hands on the counter. Tell me something about it.
She blinked. Something about what.
The store, he said.
Her mouth moved, like that question surprised her.
Uh, she said. Okay. There was this back shelf nobody touched. Not the new stuff. The old stuff. Like stuff that had someone’s name written in pencil on the first page. Like gifts, before they became donations. That shelf always smelled like paper and dust and sweater weather. Even in summer. I liked that shelf. You could just stand there and hide in words other people already survived.
Kenji nodded. Good shelf.
Yeah, she said. Best one.
She took another bite. Faster now. Less guarded.
They were quiet for a stretch. He wiped down a clean surface for the third time. She watched the steam swirl and settle over her bowl. Her jaw relaxed.
After a while she said, You’re not going to ask why I’m here during the day?
You are hungry during the day, he said.
She let out a small laugh. Yeah. That’s fair.
Then she tugged the tote bag a little closer to her side. She kept one hand over it while she ate. She did not seem aware she was doing it.
Kenji noticed. He said nothing.
When the bowl was half empty, she finally spoke again. I’m not from here.
Where, he asked.
Nebraska, she said, with a little shrug. You don’t have to say where is that. Nobody knows where Nebraska is unless they live there.
I know where Nebraska is, Kenji said.
She raised an eyebrow. Really.
Yes, he said. I have met corn.
She let out such a sharp laugh she almost choked. Oh my god, she said. Don’t say it like that. That sounded illegal.
He smiled.
She wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. Yeah, she said. Corn. Fields. Flat. Forever. That’s home. Or was.
You left, he said.
Yeah, she said. Then she corrected herself. No. Not like that. I got sent away.
Kenji waited.
She stared at her tea. My mom’s boyfriend doesn’t like me, she said, voice low and even. He said I make the house feel heavy. He said I take up air. She tried to tell him not to say that. She did, I think. She tried. But then one day I came home and my clothes were in a trash bag on the porch. So I took the bag. Came here. My friend said Portland was chill. She laughed once, but it didn’t sound like humor. So far, Portland is rain and not cheap and nobody looks at you until they do and then you don’t want them to.
Kenji nodded. Yes.
She pushed her hair out of her face. I had like six hundred dollars. Now I have like sixty. So I’m doing great.
You have a place, he said.
For now, she said. Couch. But you can’t live on somebody’s couch forever and keep calling it temporary. After a while it’s just sad.
He nodded. Yes.
Her jaw tightened. Anyway. I don’t want to talk about that part.
Okay, he said.
She blinked at him. That easy?
Yes, he said.
Her shoulders dropped again. Okay, she said quietly. Thanks.
They sat with that.
Kenji poured more tea for her. She didn’t refuse.
She ate slower now. More like a person. Less like someone escaping.
Then he asked, What is your name.
She hesitated for a second, then said, Lily.
He nodded. Lily. Good.
You? she asked.
Kenji.
She repeated it softly. Ken-ji. Her mouth shaped it like she was tasting it. I like that.
Thank you, he said.
She took another sip of tea and looked over at the shrine. Her eyes landed on Daniel’s photo. Then the blue cross. Then the napkin.
What is that corner, she asked.
It is for the people who sit here, he said.
Like a memorial, she asked.
Like a shelf, he said.
She tilted her head. A shelf?
He nodded. People leave what is too heavy.
She stared at the shrine longer this time. Her face changed just a little. The guarded part pulled back. The tired part showed.
Can I leave something, she asked.
Yes, he said.
Her throat moved. She swallowed. Her fingers tightened on the tote strap for a moment like she wasn’t sure.
Then she pulled the tote closer, unzipped it, and took something out.
It was a small book. Hardcover. The dust jacket was torn and taped. The edges of the pages were curled outward like it had lived inside too many bags. On the first page, in fading pen, was written To Lily, for when you need to remember you’re not crazy Love Mom.
Lily held the book with both hands. Her face didn’t move for a moment. When she did speak, the words came slow.
My mom bought me this when I turned fifteen, she said. Said it was for when I felt like nobody heard me and I started doing stupid things to prove I exist. She told me, When it gets bad, open to any page and read two lines out loud. Just two. Doesn’t matter which. Then breathe.
Kenji nodded.
Lily gave a tiny breath of a laugh. It’s dumb, she said. But I kinda still do it.
Not dumb, Kenji said.
She stared down at the book. Jaw tight. Then looser. She kept tracing the corner with her thumb.
Finally she said, I keep it with me all the time. Even when I sleep. I thought if I lost it I’d disappear. But it’s heavy. I don’t mean weight heavy. I mean brain heavy.
Yes, he said.
So, she whispered, can it sit here for a night.
Kenji bowed his head. It can sit as long as it needs.
Her eyes flicked up. You’re serious.
Yes.
Okay, she said, exhaling. Okay. Yeah. Okay.
She set the book down on the counter like it was glass.
He picked it up carefully, with both hands, the same way people pick up grief or newborns. He carried it to the shrine and made a little space between Daniel and Logan. He did not hide it in the back. He did not put it on top. He gave it its own place, like it belonged because she did.
Lily watched every movement. Her shoulders shook once. Not crying. Just release.
When he was done, Kenji turned back. He poured her a little more broth into the bowl.
You are safe here, he said.
Her eyes shined, but her mouth smiled. Don’t do that, she said softly.
Do what, he asked.
Say it like that. I’m not used to hearing it, and if you keep saying it I might believe you.
Believe slow, Kenji said.
She laughed, and this time it was real.
They were quiet for a minute. Just the sound of the pot and the faint city noise outside.
Then Lily said, Can I ask you something weird.
Yes.
Do people… come back. Like, more than once.
Yes, Kenji said.
Why, she asked.
Because they are still alive, he said.
She let out a small soft sound. You’re dangerous, old man.
He nodded. This is known.
She finished her bowl. He didn’t rush her. When she set her chopsticks down, she said, I don’t have money today. I’ll get some. I’ll come back and pay.
No, he said.
She frowned. No?
Next time, he said.
She stared at him. Her face searched his, like she was trying to find the trick. When she realized there wasn’t one, something tight in her expression cracked.
Thank you, she whispered.
He nodded.
She stood. Pulled her jacket tight. Picked up her tote. Then paused and looked at the book in the shrine.
Don’t let anybody take it, she said.
Nobody here takes what isn’t theirs, Kenji said.
She nodded. Okay. Okay. I’ll come get it tomorrow. Or tonight. I don’t know. Soon.
I will be here, he said.
You’re always here, she said.
Yes.
Lily’s mouth twitched in something like a smile. Then, quietly, like a secret just for the room, she said, This is the first place in this city that feels like it wants me alive.
Kenji felt that.
He didn’t answer right away. He let her words sit there in the warm light, because they deserved to.
Then he said, Come back hungry.
She nodded. Then she was gone.
The bell rang. The door closed. The street sounds slipped back in — bus brakes, a voice laughing somewhere down the block, the soft click of a bike chain.
Kenji stood by the counter for a moment and just breathed.
He looked at the shrine now. The two coins. The blue cross. Daniel’s face, watching. The trucker’s wife smiling from the hood of a truck. The handwritten napkin. The crisis number. The postcard that said Do not disappear. And now, the book with a note from a mother to a daughter, telling her to keep breathing.
It did not look like a grave.
It looked like proof.
He reached up and adjusted the book just a little so it would not slump.
Then, very softly, he said to the room, She is staying.
The broth answered in a gentle simmer.
Outside, Monday kept going. People hurried past. Life pressed forward. Nobody on the street knew what had happened in that quiet, warm room.
But the shop knew.
And the shop kept the door unlocked.

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