"I regret going to Vietnam to do those interviews. It's been a little over an hour

Since I returned, and everything

Hurts even worse now. I was

Only there for

Uh, half an hour? I felt

Like time was going slow, I

Don't know. But, I should

Not have gone.

There was something in the air. I

Have no idea what.

Ah, I am starting to feel

Very dizzy. I should have listened. But,

Everyone, no, Rasa, demanded I

Go. I should have

Opted out earlier.

Now I am definitely going to

End up getting worse.

The doctor told me my

Organs were

Very close to shutting down when Pira took me

Into the medical facility. Am I close to the

Edge? I might be, I

Think I am. I should have

Never signed myself up for the interview

At the Vietnam restaurant base. I bet

My brothers know

I left, too. My

Secret is out, isn't it?

Hmm, no, Varg and Pira are always asleep at midnight.

Oh, but Strix wasn't.

Ugh, what should I do if he confronts me?

La la la, my head is spinning, I

Don't know! I shouldn't

Have agreed to

Any of this. The

Vietnam base, not

Even a

Single one of

Them was guilty!

And now the investigation on the culprits won't

Yield. I cannot

Even go to the next one, I

Doubt Pira and Varg are going to let me out of bed. Ugh,

I feel guilty

Now. What are they going to eat? I

Bet they'll order takeout

Every single

Day while

I'm laying here! I can't let

That happen. I

Have to at least cook.

Ugh, my chest, it's burning. Burning,

Raaah. I know I need

To rest, but I

Simply can't let

Them all go hungry,

Or order takeout. I'm

Barred from using the stove until I've

Recovered, but I can't let them

Eat unhealthy things

As I lie here for a few days.

That won't do. I

Have to make sure they all

Eat well. Especially Pira.

I'm certain he eats

Mostly fast food while on breaks at work. I

Probably should start making him a

Robustly healthy meal for his breaks.

Obviously, if I am going to

Be a five star restaurant owner in Rome, I

Am obligated to make sure for now, my

Brothers eat healthy. It

Looks Hase, Leah and Natalie have

Yet to return from Belgium, so I

Guess I don't have to worry about them, but

Even so, I don't know if my sisters are eating,

They don't check

Their phones.

I can't help but worry. Deigr and Coiote

Need to stop

Going on about

Wild diets all

Of the time. I'm

Rather certain they'll

Soon crash and burn if they

Eternally push it. My sisters need

To rethink this diet stuff.

Oh, my head is spinning,

Ow, my thoughts, clouding.

I miss mother and father. If

Mother and father were here,

I'd be fine. If mother were here,

She'd help me get better, Pira

Shouldn't have to shoulder everything.

Mother, where are you? Everything hurts.

Ow, my chest.

Mother always puts research

And work first. I

Never know where she is! I

Don't know where father is, but it

Doesn't matter, he's

Always with mother. It hurts, everything is tight. I

Don't want to be alone.

Please, come back. I feel a

Large hole in my life that got

Even bigger

After returning home. Mother,

She was always busy, but whenever I

Ended up hurting myself when I was a

Child, she was there.

Of course,

Mother's presence got

Even lesser as I grew older, but I learned

How to cook when I was little for her!

Oh, please,

Mother come home!

Everything hurts! Haha, as if

She can hear me

Over in South Africa.

Of course she can't.

Never mind. I need to stop working myself up."