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Littlelamb

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

Dec 01, 2025


The quiet calm Ari had felt in the days since her breakthrough had started to fade.

The peaceful days of solitude, where she could sit and simply be, had begun to feel increasingly distant. The world outside, the world of her family, was never still for long.

The incessant calls, the constant demands; they were always there, pulling her back, reminding her that no matter how much she changed, no matter how far she reached for peace, her life would always be tethered to their expectations.

It had been a week since the last time her mother had been admitted to the hospital. The familiar guilt had crept back into her heart, but this time, something was different.

Instead of burying it under the weight of her duty, Ari stood still and let the wave wash over her. She didn’t drown in it. She felt it, acknowledged it, and then, let it go.

Her mother was recovering; slowly, as always, but it felt like the momentary relief was just another pause in the endless cycle of worry and exhaustion that her family seemed to orbit in.

Ari hadn’t been able to visit her in the hospital yet, not because she didn’t care, but because she knew the moment she did, the same cycle would begin again. The demands. The guilt. The resentment.

She sat in the same corner of her room where it all had started, feeling the weight of her thoughts more clearly than ever before.

The voice inside her, the gentle whispers that had once calmed her, were still there, but they were quieter now, like the faint hum of a distant melody.

The noise of her family’s world had begun to drown them out again. It was suffocating.

She had to make a choice.

It was late in the evening when the text came through. Her eldest sister, Kim, had messaged her again:

"Ari, we need you to pick up the kids. Mom's medicine is due, and I can't get there tonight."

Ari stared at the screen for a long moment. The familiar pang of guilt twisted in her chest, the invisible thread that tied her to this role; the caretaker, the fixer, the one who always came to the rescue.

Her fingers hovered over the phone, torn between responding and silencing the device altogether.

She could feel it, the pull, and the overwhelming pressure to be what they expected of her.

But her heart was different now. It didn’t beat to their rhythm anymore.

It beat to the sound of her own breath, of her own soul, of the quiet truth that she was more than what they had made her feel.

For the first time in her life, she couldn’t bring herself to answer.

Her phone buzzed again.

"Ari?"

It was Kim. She didn’t respond right away. A rush of heat filled her face, a knot tightening in her stomach.

She knew she couldn’t avoid this forever, but she also knew she couldn’t go back to being the person they wanted her to be. She couldn’t keep pretending that everything was okay when it wasn’t.

Ari stood up, her feet moving almost on their own accord. She walked over to the window and stared out into the night, the city lights flickering like stars too far to reach.

It was cold, but the air felt fresher than it had in weeks. As if the world was waiting for her to take that first step.

And then, without even thinking about it, Ari did what she had never allowed herself to do before.

She let the phone drop onto the floor.

The sound of it bouncing off the hardwood was a small, insignificant thing. But to Ari, it felt like a decision that had been a long time coming. She didn’t need to pick up the pieces for them anymore.

She didn’t need to rescue them. She didn’t need to fix their lives at the cost of her own.

She didn’t need to prove herself anymore.

Her heart was racing, but there was a strange clarity in it now, a sharp, undeniable truth that had been buried beneath years of self-doubt and guilt.

Ari took a deep breath and felt the air fill her lungs with something new, hope. It wasn’t grand, or loud, or dramatic.

It was quiet and steady, like the first breath of someone waking from a long, restless sleep.

She stepped away from the window and walked over to the small desk where her writing notebook sat, untouched for days, its pages empty.

The urge to write had come back again, but this time, it felt different.

It didn’t feel like an obligation or a way to escape. It felt like a part of herself she had almost forgotten existed.

She picked up the pen, her hand shaking slightly. But as the pen met the paper, something inside her stirred.

The words came slowly at first, hesitant, fragile; but then they began to flow, like a dam breaking open.

Ari wrote not because she had to, but because she wanted to. Because it was a part of who she was, a part that she could reclaim.

And then, she wrote something she hadn’t written in years. Something she didn’t even know she believed anymore.

"I am enough."

The words weren’t just for the page. They were for her.

Ari finished writing and sat back, staring at the simple phrase that seemed to hold so much power. She wasn’t sure what came next.

She wasn’t sure what her life would look like. But for the first time in a long time, she felt like she had the right to choose her path.

She wasn’t bound by anyone else’s expectations. She didn’t have to be the savior. She didn’t have to be the one who fixed everything.

Ari Ven was finally learning that she could exist for herself.









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At twenty-five, Ari Ven stands at the edge of survival and surrender. Trapped between a fractured family, unspoken grief, and the heavy weight of unmet expectations, she searches for meaning in a world that never made room for her healing.

As she turns to her writing and a growing spiritual faith, Ari begins to uncover a quiet strength; one that challenges everything she's been told about purpose, love, and what it means to finally come home to herself.
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