Jon turned. Coldhands was already moving. Slowly almost reverently he reached up and drew back his hood. The face beneath was grey and pale, the skin drawn tight by death, eyes glowing faint red in the firefly light. Ice rimed his lashes. His breath did not mist. And yet—

Jon knew that face. He had known it since childhood. Had seen it smiling across the hearth at Winterfell, stern and amused all at once. Had heard it laugh. Had felt its hand clap his shoulder. “Uncle…” Jon whispered.

Benjen Stark inclined his head. The motion was stiff, wrong in small ways, but unmistakably him. A sad smile touched his lips, cracked but sincere. “Jon,” he said. His voice was rough, as if scraped across frost. “You’ve grown.”

The world tilted. Jon staggered forward, stopping only a few paces away, afraid, absurdly that if he touched him, Benjen would shatter into rime and bone. “You’re…” He swallowed hard. “You’re dead.”

Benjen chuckled softly. “Mostly.”

Anger flared then, sharp and sudden, cutting through the shock. “What happened?” Jon demanded. “What did they do to you?”

Benjen’s smile faded. “I got done in by them,” he said simply.

The grove seemed to darken at the words, the fireflies dimming as if in mourning. The Children listened in silence.

“We were tracking signs,” Benjen went on. “Dead villages. Vanished clans. Too clean. Too quiet.” His red eyes drifted northward, toward unseen horrors. “They were watching us long before we ever knew.”

He touched his chest, where the black fabric of his cloak was stiff with old frost. “They came in the night. White shadows. Cold that burned worse than fire. I fought. We all did. It wasn’t enough.”

Jon clenched his fists. “Why aren’t you like them?” he asked. “Why aren’t you… controlled?”

Benjen looked at the child. “She intervened,” he said. “The Children did. Bound me before the Others could finish their work. Anchored what was left of me to the old magics. To memory.”

The Child spoke quietly. “He carried King Blood. We could not let him fall into their hands. He now walks in death, but his will is his own. A rare thing. A costly thing.”

Benjen nodded. “I can’t cross the Wall anymore. Can’t rest. Can’t truly live.” He met Jon’s gaze. “But I am not theirs.”

Jon’s eyes burned. “I looked for you,” he said. “In another life. I never found anything. Just bones and rumors.”

Benjen’s expression looked confused but he smiled. “I saw you. From afar. You were brave. And stubborn. Stark to the bone. I decided to stay away.”

The small Child with the antlers stepped forward again. Leaves crunched softly beneath her bare feet. She looked at Jon Snow not as a boy, nor as a man, but as something unfinished.

“You have walked far,” she said. “Farther than you were meant to.”

A faint smile touched her lips. “We never expected to find you here…maybe your little brother and his friends but you were to be Lord Commander.”

Jon knew she must be talking about his first life. How things played out before. However he was surprised that they knew how things played out. The children of the forest were truly very alien creatures with many powers.

Benjen shifted beside him. Jon could feel the cold radiating off his uncle now, not painful, but ever-present, like standing too close to a glacier. Benjen said nothing, but his eyes watched the Children carefully. He knew this moment mattered.

“There is someone who wishes to see you,” the Child continued. Her golden eyes flicked northward, far beyond the trees, beyond even the sense of distance. “One who watches. One who remembers. One who waits.”

Jon’s brow furrowed. “Who?”

“The Three-Eyed Crow.”

The name meant nothing to him. “What does he want with me?” Jon asked.

“To teach,” said another Child, taller, bark-scarred, with eyes like amber lit from within. “To bind. To prepare. To pass on what cannot be carried much longer.”

Jon’s pulse quickened. “Prepare me for what?”

The grove darkened for a heartbeat. Somewhere far away, ice cracked like thunder. “For the Long Night,” the Children said together.

Jon exhaled slowly. He had known this answer would come. Had felt it coiled around every step of his journey north, in every corpse he burned, every wight he cut down, every beast he fought just to keep moving.

“I’ve already fought the dead,” Jon said. “I know they’re coming.”

“You know the surface of a storm,” the antlered Child replied gently. “Not the heart of it.”

“If I go to this… watcher,” Jon said at last, “will he know things about me?”

The Children exchanged glances. “He will see what is shown,” Leaf said carefully. “And much that is not.”

Benjen snorted softly. “Cryptic as ever.” His looked at Jon. “I have felt him,” he said. “A presence deeper than the snows. Older than the Wall. He is not one of the Others.”

Jon felt a chill crawl up his spine. In his first life, he had never met such a being. He knew nothing of crows with three eyes, of trees that spoke, of those who watched through bark and bone. Whatever this was, it was new. Untested. Dangerous.

“If I go to this… crow,” Jon said slowly, “what happens to me?”

The Children did not answer at once. At last, the antlered Child said, “You will change.”

Jon let out a humorless breath. “That’s hardly new.”

She smiled sadly. “You will see through roots and ravens. You will carry memories that are not yours. You will feel the weight of every choice ever made in this land.” Her voice softened. “And some part of you may never return.”

Silence stretched. “And if I refuse?” Jon asked.

Leaf spread her small hands. “Then you may remain here. Hidden. Safe, for a while. This grove is warded. The dead do not enter. The Others do not see it.”

Safe. The word rang hollow.

Jon looked at Benjen. His uncle studied him in a way that made Jon uneasy not as a man studies a boy, but as a ranger studies a storm he cannot predict. “You’ve changed,” Benjen said slowly.

Jon said nothing. Because how could he explain it?

How could he tell them that this was not his first time standing at the edge of the world? That he had already lived, already failed, already died with betrayal on his lips and steel in his gut? That this was not courage driving him forward but refusal?

They did not know. None of them knew. To them, Jon Snow was simply a young man who had come too far beyond the Wall and survived.

Not a revenant of time. Not someone who had a second chance. Not a soul dragging an entire future behind his eyes.

Jon thought of Winterfell. Of Bran, broken and fallen, his fate already twisting away from the path Jon remembered. Of Arya, wild and sharp and alone. Of Sansa, still unscarred, for now. Of a world that kept ending no matter how many times he tried to hold it together.

He thought of Robb, dying beneath a fallen horse, and of knives in the dark at Castle Black, and of waking gasping for breath with snow in his mouth.

He thought of Ghost. The direwolf sat at the edge of the grove, red eyes fixed on Jon, tail still, posture alert. Waiting. Always waiting. He would follow Jon anywhere. He always had.

“If I stay,” Jon said, “the world still burns.”

“Yes,” said the Children.

“If I go,” Jon said, “it might burn anyway.”

“Yes,” they said again.

Jon closed his eyes.

When he opened them, his voice was steady.

“I didn’t come this far to hide.”

The antlered Child bowed her head, just a fraction. Respect. Not approval. Not sorrow. Simply acknowledgement.

“The path to the Three-Eyed Crow is long,” she said. “Longer than the one you have already walked. You will not return as you are.”

Benjen stepped forward then. He placed a cold, dead hand on Jon’s shoulder. The touch should have been unbearable. It wasn’t. “Whatever you become,” he said quietly, “remember this, you are a Stark. And you are my nephew. That still matters.”

Jon nodded, throat tight. “I won’t forget.”

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