It didn't take long for us to move inside and begin the actual celebrations, we came down to our humongous dining room and the maids came shortly after completely filling our fourteen seater long table with food.

There were various assortments of meat, rice, bread, refreshments and the highest quality wine but all i had was my regular custard and a glass of orange juice, it would have been nice to at least eat some normal food before dying.

The next thing on the agenda was the birthday cake which made my face unconsciously beam with joy. Another pleasant surprise about this world was the cuisine. 

I knew it was somewhat similar to my world but who would have known there was cake, this one had three neat layers with dazzling white icing and neatly decorated strawberries. The ingredients may not be the exact same but it works all the more. 

Maybe I could swindle some of that.

A light chuckle and rasping caught my attention, it was my family seemingly holding in their laughter. They had found my facial expression all the more amusing.

"Pfft...Damian...wants to eat my cake! Look at his cute round eyes!", Lucia said mockingly.

"Can babies even eat cake?!", my father inquired.

"It's usually best to keep sweets away from them until they reach two".

"Aww so sorry bro, maybe in the next coming years".

These bastards, I will have cake even if it's the last thing I do.

The celebrations fell into full swing as we ate, laughed and danced, well mainly them obviously. There was even a jester invited, who made a rather funny joke about my father who, judging by his facial expression, didn't find it as funny.

At one point my father stood up and raised a glass in his hand, "Today marks the birthday of my first born son Lucia who, as the first son, is said to inherit the Vulture's Empire when I am gone. He has impressed me today just as he always has but I also want to give a toast to everyone here today".

"My beautiful caring wife, Damian, the baby always getting into one trouble or the other, the butlers, maids, the entire Vulture empire. You all work so hard in every faction and I'm all the more delighted to announce before the word spreads, we have gone up two places and now sit at fortieth place on Giana’s empire rankings".

"For your passion, your work, your love, I thank you all".

The mansion roared in cheers, "Sir Nathaniel, Ole! Ole!", It sounded just like a football stadium’s chant.

Their celebrations were understandable as this wasn't small news by any means, going up by just one rank is difficult, to do two at a go is crazy. The Empire system is something done only in Giana, none of the other six nations practice it, they usually just have the regular Patriarchal or Matriarchal system for noble homes.

In other places, if you aren't born or married into nobility, then you aren't going to be much but such doesn't happen here.

Once you are strong enough, you find a town, buy some land, build, gather information and resources, get strong soldiers and before you know it, you've become the anchor of the region. That's how one gets an Empire, there are almost biweekly checks on empires to determine their rankings with a lot of aspects being considered.

I felt a pang of pride as I watched my father celebrate the rest of the night but at some point he and my mother had one too many drinks and were getting a bit too touchy, a bit too openly.

A small piece of cake plopped onto my now empty custard bowl, looking to my side, I saw Lucia shooting me a cheeky grin.

I wasted no time devouring the vanilla flavoured blessing, I can die in peace now.

After my mom gestured for Patricia to take me to my room, she left the dining room with my father, obviously to do some not so decent things. 

Patricia scooped me up and after a short detour to the bathroom, she laid me down on my crater. She was already visibly tipsy and slightly swayed from side to side just as I expected.

She would usually wait about thirty minutes or longer after I had supposedly slept before leaving and this would usually be enough to tire out my baby body enough to just sleep but after shutting my eyes for just about ten minutes she left.

I knew I'd have free time after the event but this is a bit too easy, my parents tend to get down and dirty when they're drunk, Lucia should still be eating cake or what not and Patricia would be drunk by at least some degree. 

I stood up on my crater, parted the curtains and opened the window behind it. I gazed at the moon or should I say moons, the two beautiful moons that illuminated the night sky. 

They didn't always come out together, sometimes only one was visible, sometimes one and part of the other but this time they both were.

"Kaguya and Artemis". 

The twin moons looked even better with my vision, from here I could easily see the craters that gave them their distinct look.

The light emanating from them filled my room, not that i can't already see in the dark but it added an almost bittersweet vibe, seeing my new clothes, new room, new life, could i really find peace.

I reached into the side of my crater and pulled out five white pills from a particularly tight corner. They were sleeping pills, I found them in one of the butler's rooms and have been slowly stashing them here until it would be enough to die of overdose. I don't really know why a butler had these, perhaps some insomnia but it benefited me anyways. 

It was time to end it all again.

It was finally time to end it all.

I can...end it all.

What would happen if I kill myself again? I may just get reincarnated again but that’s still not what I’m most worried about.

Flashes of the past day hit me all at once, the happy smiles of my parents, Lucia’s cheeky smile as he watched me eat cake for the first time, my mothers smile as she held her son. 

I have a family again. 

I didn't want to admit it but I had grown to like these people over the past year but do I even deserve to have a good life? What would Oliver and Amanda think?? What would my parents think? What would Lucia think? He looks at me with so much glee.

I looked down at the pills in my hand and tears began to drop onto them.

No, it's not about them. 

I don't know about the future but at this point of things, one thing is certain. 

I am happy.

I don't want to die.

Not at this point, not while I'm in somewhere like this. This world is so vast and beautiful.

I want to learn how to use magic, I want to learn to fight, I want to stay with my family, I want to get friends, I want to get a lover.

I want to live.

I held the pills hard in my hands and threw them out the window. I have a reason to keep going, I have people rooting for me.

"I'm sorry Oliver, Amanda".

I shut the windows and let out a deep breath then I felt my heart skip a beat, my chest began to burn as I clenched it and began coughing, energy was quickly sapped from my veins and my legs gave way.

My body quickly became heavy as I fell back onto the bed, am I dying?? What could be going on? That’s when I saw it, the reason for the heat in my chest.

My mana core had formed.

I began to sweat profusely and my vision darkened, I was falling unconscious, this isn’t meant to happen.

“Hel…help”.

My voice coming out muffled and weak, I lacked even the strength to speak. Finally I curled up on my bed as the last bit of energy left me and everything went black.

“I’ve been waiting to speak with you boy”.

My eyes snapped open at the sound of a familiar voice, sitting upon some throne.

The god who reincarnated me.

END OF CHAPTER 4.