So I know that I am late on posting, I'm sorry it takes me like 1-3 weeks to finish anything because of my insecurities ( Shyness, perfectionist, low-self esteem).

I am slowly getting better at battling these portions of myself. And sometimes I have a hard time at seeing my own value. So there will be a lot of posts, where I will post up redraw memes or redraws or old sketches. Not just because I want to show you guys where I came from, but I post them as a reminder to myself how far I have come as well.

That sure there are still plenty of things I need to learn, but there are many things I have learned over the past seven years.

I am not the best artist, and I will never claim to be one. But I am who I am; sometimes I need to remind myself that. That I can't be like Fany from Skies Unlimited or Dedasaur from The Nose and the Flower. Or The Snipster from A Matter of Life and Death or anyone else for that matter.

But I can be myself and whatever being myself means. There is nothing wrong with being flawed as long as it's me. I know I say this with ease now, but I have been trying to tell myself this for over 18 years. It's a life lesson that I struggle with regularly. It is my burden to bear. The issue of self-value.

For it, not only affects my art but my entire being, my character, my thoughts, my actions. I hope that this diary will help me to become the person I desire to be, that I become someone who doesn't have struggles but one who overcomes them in light of my struggles that I can carry them with more ease.

And I hope this diary; this sketchbook will help other people out too.