Dearest Brother Jayden,

First of all, I want to make this clear. It is not Chloe's fault that I died. In fact, it was mine, and only mine. So, if you have been blaming her, then please apologize to Chloe when you can.

I gasped and my grip tightened, leaving crinkles and creases. Why was she writing it like as if Chloe was still alive?

I decided to die.

I couldn't take this anymore, she couldn't be for real. I clenched my teeth and made an inhuman sound that sounded like neither a cry nor a groan, but rather both. Why was this happening to me?

You have to know, life was hard on me, and I was pretty hard on my life, as well. I tried to keep it in, you know? I noticed that you've been doing that, too. It's hard, you know?

I knew.

I just don't know how to go through every day. I just couldn't do it. It's not about school or family, it's about life. You should understand, you always do. You're the best brother anyone can have, you know?

This time, I didn't.

You're always there for Chlo and I, and you're always so kind and funny and I...I wish you were Pa.

I sighed and looked out the window at the darkening sky. Pa didn't have the best reputation in our house, but he was fine, really. Well, at least when he was happy.

I love you a lot, Jay-Jay.

I smiled.

Now, for the breakthrough. Breakthrough? That is the right word, right? Anyways, I asked for it, I asked Chloe to push me off of the cliff.

I was scandalized. What was she talking about? This couldn't be real, could it?

Yes, it's real. I'm not kidding. I don't kid a lot, now do I? I guess there never was anything to kid about. Basically, to clear this all up, I told Chloe to push me off of the cliff. She didn't do anything. I bet you're wondering why I didn't just jump. Well, that's because Chloe wanted to push me off, and I probably wouldn't have done it if it weren't for her.

And she made it sound like it would've been a bad thing if she didn't jump. I sighed and sighed and looked out the window again. I didn't know what I was supposed to feel.

I'm sorry, Jay. I'm really sorry.

No, Jess, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't notice earlier. I'm sorry I didn't save you. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry, really.

I didn't know what to do, you know?

Yes, wait, no, actually...maybe, maybe not.

I felt hopeless and depressed, and the worst part was, I was alone on all this. Chlo tried to help and all, she really did, but I was hopeless. I'm terribly sorry, Jay.

NO! It's all my fault. All my fault. Why didn't I help. Why didn't you ask for my help!?

It must be awful at home right now, but I hope you can make it clear to Ma and Pa that it wasn't Chlo's fault. She didn't do anything. Chlo must be having a really bad time right now. I regret dragging her into this ordeal.

Chloe...of course...she didn't know...

I'm so, so sorry. I love you, Jay-jay. And also, please save Chlo.

Love,

Jessica

One thing. She only requested one thing, and I couldn't do it.