(kastle's pov)

It's the afternoon and I wake up with Trace's strong arms wrapped loosely around my waist and my chest is against his. I look up at his adorable pale face and place my head in the crook of his neck and he groans a little and slowly opens his stunning blue eyes. He looks down at me and smiles I just put my face in his chest clutching his shirt and blushing like a tomato.

"h-hey." he says turning away slightly, wait did I just see him blush?

"u-um hi." he turns back towards me his face flushed.

"do you want to get something to eat?" he asked.

"yeah I guess I could eat." I say quietly I've been hiding for years that I'm anorexic and now that we'll be living together it'll be a little harder to hide that.My bones have quickly started to become more prominent. I just cant bring myself to eat; every time I look at food I'm repulsed by it.

"what would you like?"

"just an apple is fine i'm not that hungry."

"OK." he gets up to go to the kitchen and I groggily follow behind. I let my eyes wander slightly and I look at his not too shabby ass. I think he notices me staring when he turns and lets out a small laugh. I turn away and start blushing like crazy, I mean, I cant help it, he's hot. I can feel him walk up to me and wrap his arms loosely around my middle as he places his chin in the crook of my neck. I turn around and his face is so close to mine, I can feel his warm breath dancing on my lips. I catch him staring at my lips he then brings our faces even closer together and unexpectedly, just hugs me. I'm surprised at first but then I hug him back and we just stand there in his kitchen in possibly the most awkward hug ever. We then slowly push away and he turns around to open the fridge, sticking his head in to look for something to eat. He then sticks his head back out and tosses me an apple and I take it without a word.

I finished the apple and threw the core away then I walked over to the bed where Trace was sitting and not so gracefully sat down next to him. I leaned over and put my head on his shoulder and he puts his hand in my hair lightly playing with it.

"let's go to bed" he finally says. I nod and leave the room to go change into my pj's. I come back and Trace is sitting in his underwear, he then looks up at me and flashes a small affectionate smile at me. I crawl into bed with him and he holds me close to his chest, I start to have a deep blush spread across my face. He holds me a little closer to him and he kisses the top of my head and I quickly drift off into a deep sleep.

...........Later in Kastle's nightmare..........

"NO! NO! NOOOOOOOOOOO! LET ME GO! I Didn't do anything wrong! Stop it, please!" I'm trying to get up off of the hard floor but am met in the face with a foot and fall hard back onto the floor. I'm zooming in and out of consciousness and I feel hands on my shoulders shaking me violently.

"KASTLE! KASTLE! KASTLE!" I can hear Trace calling out to me and I try to reach out to his voice but then a hand collides viciously against my cheek causing it to bleed.

I then wake up and Trace is on top of me practically on the verge of tears, he looks at me with such sadness and worry. I then jump up and run into the bathroom pulling out my blades from under his sink that he put there for his shaver. I start to cry uncontrollably as I allow the blade to kiss my skin dragging it across my arm and letting the warm scarlet liquid quickly flow down my arm. I can hear Trace banging on the door screaming my name. As I begin to fade out of consciousness he is able to open the door and he quickly grabs a towel applying pressure to my arm in attempt to stop the bleeding.

The bleeding stops and Trace holds me in his arms crying softly in my ear.

"Why?" He asks.

"I had a bad dream." I reply. My head is buried in his chest and my arms are too weak to hold onto him like I would want to.

"I'm so sorry." I'm sobbing into his chest and he starts stroking my hair.

"It's okay..., I forgive you" he starts to calm down and he picks me up then, puts me back in the bed and holds me close to him, showing no sign of letting me go anytime soon. It takes me a while but I slowly start to drift back off into peaceful sleep holding the one thing I cherish most close to me.

"How can I love him more than anything in the world?"I ask myself.