Update(11/7/2017):

Wow! Today was incredibly tiring!! I cannot believe I actually step out of that house and worked for 12 hours straight! My arms, my legs and my back are sore as hell! All these for only $100. This really makes me reconsider my past actions when I used to spend $200 in a single day. Alright I will sleep now now, its already 2 a.m. and I have work tomorrow as well at 5 p.m.

Update(12/7/2017):

I am in the toilet now, I am really tired and especially sleepy, I really need some rest here before continuing my job. I don't think I can keep this up anymore, I want to go study university, this kind of Hotel waiter job does not suit me.

Update(13/7/2017):

Today I have work to do but I pretend to be sick and avoided going there. My body suffers from fatigue and my brain cannot think due to the exhaustion compounded these few days. I cannot think, cannot do anything even playing games and worst of all my body is too sore to move. Now I truly respect those who work all days of the week from morning to evening.

Update(14/7/2017):

I escaped again... I feel like I am returning back to my old self and lack the discipline to fulfill what I have promised. Damn, I regret what I have done in the past that leads to today.

Update(15/7/2017):

Today I have went for work again, I work only for 6 hours and that is because I overspend my budget and I need emergency cash. Actually after working awhile it doesn't feel as tired or as draining as it was before. Who knows, I might change for the better from now on.

Update(16/7/2017):

I think I am getting used to this kind of routine. Wake up, brush teeth, wash up, get ready to leave, play some games while waiting for transport and then repeat after I reach home.

Update(18/7/2017):

It has been two days, nothing in particular happened.

Update(19/7/2017):

Same as yesterday, nothing special...

Update(20/7/2017):

Another boring routine...

Update(21/7/2017):

Repetitive morning...

Update(22/7/2017):

Again...

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Update(1/8/2017):

I have had enough of this! Same old day again and again and again! I feel like a machine being programmed into doing the same thing! Each day is uneventful, same kind of warning given, same hour of break, same food, everything is the same!! 

I don't think I want to spend the rest of my life doing something I have no passion for, I know the importance of having money, a stable job. Some of you might call me a lazy bastard, a whinny spoiled brat that is unable to face the world. 

Well... Very well... I guess you are right. You are the hero that is able to work at 9 and end at 9. You are unique for being able to handle the same scolding over and over again. You are amazing for working at a job you dislike for more than half of your lifetime wasted. Good job, because you are that fellow that succumbs to the society's standards doesn't mean if I have my ways to do things I am wrong!!!

The competition is getting tougher...

I am bothered living under what others expect me to live...

I just want to rest in a place where no one will come and disturb me...

This cycle, if I were to continue this meaningless cycle,

Just how close will I head towards insanity?

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Somebody please help me...

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