I should have known better...

                                                       From the start I should have foreseen this...

                         Nothing in the world has the meaning "Fair" as what it is defined in a dictionary.

Somethings are defined the moment of their birth...

                                                       Some of us will never be Heroes...

Losers will always be losers if they continue believing that they are one.

We will never accomplish anything if we never even start trying something new.

Gamer and NEETs are failures and a burden of society?

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Well, the statement is flawed as there are many successful e-Sports gamer that has made more money than you working your entire life. More talented writers and artists that never stepped out of their house than you could ever imagine...

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However, the statement still stands. 

The truth is... more often than not, gamer will not succeed in life because they are always devoting their time on virtual images made up of codes. The odds of one becoming a professional e-Sports gamer and lead a affluent life is even lesser than becoming a political party officials. Most of us lack the focus and discipline to become the best at what we are doing and that is what I finally understood:

What I have sacrificed reflects what I am. More importantly, the willingness to always strive for excellence separates the 'gifted' and the 'average'.

I have accepted this fact...

I wonder if there is anymore meaning in life after realizing I could never become what I hoped to be... Spending my time living as in mediocrity...

I want to die...

I want it all to end right now; no more choices, no more stress, open me a path to haven.

For those that has believed in me, I am truly sorry...

I know no matter how much I apologize will never ease the disappointment in your heart... and now, I have made the worst decision and make your heart agonize in more pain...

I am sorry for being selfish.

I am sorry for always complaining but never really do anything to correct the errors.

I am sorry Dad, Mom and my friends. Sorry for always letting you down. I know I have always been somewhat a burden but you guys still accepted me and allow me to influence your life. Thank you and sorry.

I am sorry to my co-workers that I have caused inconvenience during your work time. I hope you guys are doing well now without me.

I came into this world unknowingly...

Now, it is my turn to leave without a trace...

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Slowly...

Erased...

From...

Existence...

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It has been a rather boring journey I must admit.  

If there will be a next life, I know I can do better, and achieve more... But really, I don't know what to feel anymore... 

At last, the suffering shall end

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I am sorry myself, for being like this... Thank you for the past 18 years...

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Goodbye world.

"Hello..."