Dear Nobody,

This topic is extremely controversial but I'm inspired. I mean no offense to anyone. This is my opinion.

re·li·gion

rəˈlijən/

noun

the belief in and worship of a superhuman controlling power, especially a personal God or gods.

I grew up in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I feel like the grammar is incorrect in that name but oh well, more commonly referred to as Mormons or Morons depending on who you talk to. The Mormon church is an interesting place to grow up in. The Word of Wisdom says that Mormons should dress a certain way to maintain chastity. For me, that meant no tank tops or shorts above my knee. I grew up and began to immediately judge other people for how revealing their state of dress was.

I remember coming to church the Sunday after my first week in school and talking my teacher's ear off about a girl in my class. I told my teacher how pretty and nice she was. My teacher asked me about the boys in my class and my response was somewhere along the lines of 'they're okay but (Privacy of girls name here) is so amazing!'  I got taught the lesson of marriage.

When I was nine I first began to question the church. It's worth noting that this was only a year after my baptism. My cousin had just come out as homosexual and the family was reacting very... negatively. I, at the time, didn't know what homosexuality was and just knew I loved my cousin no matter what. I didn't understand why the god I had grown up learning about wouldn't love my cousin because he likes guys. 

By the time I was eleven I had fully removed myself from the church. I knew how many Sundays I could get away with sleeping in before my mom would notice and I figured out that I could sneak into the attic instead of going to class. My only friend in the church invited me to her vacation and while we were there we both admitted to each other that we didn't believe in god. 

I was twelve when I came out as homosexual to my main friends. I was thirteen when my mom found out. I was away at church camp when same-sex marriage was legalized. I remember texting my friend and spamming "I CAN GET MARRIED". The next day I walked into church feeling unstoppable. Sacrament meeting ran late as the bishop read out a letter that was the church's address to the legalization of same-sex marriage. From the basic level, the letter said IT'S OKAY TO BE GAY!!! but don't act on it. Don't have relations with the same sex and don't get married to the same sex. I can remember getting really upset and leaving. 

My personal belief is that there is no god or gods ruling over our universe. And until god stands in front of me my belief will stay the same. I will not stand with a deity that won't treat everyone equally, no matter race, gender, sexuality, mental and/or physical condition, or other diversities. If I die and there is a deity telling me I was sick for liking females then I'll probably slap them across the face.

thank you for listening,

The Writing Evil