Dear Nobody,

There's thirty of you and I don't know why I'm letting thirty people read my "diary" but oh fucking well you're here now and I can pretend to know what I'm talking about. So, um, yeah.

If I could draw this is where I'd put 30 subs with a bunch of balloons with me in the corner blowing a kazoo.

YAYYYYY!!!!!

Okay now to the actual topic.

Have you ever had your hope squashed so many times that when you find something to hope for, your hope kinda just looks at you like... are you fucking nuts? Even I know that's not going to happen. I think my hope is slowly being replaced by pessimistic hard-headedness. 

I know my writing needs improvement but I'm not getting any improvement in school. All they want is to teach me how to write a very specific essay for a test that once I pass no one will ever care about. I don't see the point in learning and relearning how to use commas and semicolons. I want to learn how to build up my writing. My grammar is something that can be improved by simply editing. 

I haven't had a teacher actually encourage my writing since sixth grade. Before that, I had never had an encouraging teacher in the writing standpoint. 

I began actively writing in fourth grade. My english teacher took one of my stories and read it and told me that It was really good (in that voice all teachers use when they don't want to crush children's dreams) but I should stick to the prompt and layout of the stories we were supposed to be writing.

Fuck that.

Word of advice.

Don't listen to anyone. It doesn't cost anything but time to sit and practice and break out of the rules and structure of certain things. Writing isn't even considered an art in my school system because school writing isn't. Never let someone tell you that you can't do something. You practice every day. 

Got writer's block? No problem set your characters house on fire and see how they react. It builds skills and description without fitting the cannon.

Got people telling you that you will never go anywhere in life? The only person you should impress is yourself. Have pride in every cringey piece of work you've made because they were all stepping stones to where you are now.

Grow, learn, and one day be so happy and proud of yourself that nothing else matters.

A panel of judges can't tell you how much your story is worth

A story can be read by a million people or just one and neither one means a story is better. There are sad people out there that don't like Harry Potter. The twilight books were shit but millions of girls and guys fawned over them.

Your writing is not determined by how many people read it, it's determined by your pride in the message you are sending.

Stay pessimistically hard-headed.

Thanks For Listening,

The Writing Evil

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