Today, I was on cloud nine. I felt like I could do anything. Maybe it's cause I don't see him until May, two months later. I yawned, my jaw cracking from how much it was being pulled on. Now I wasn't just tired, I was hungry too. I couldn't wait for Mtr.Alessio's English class too ned. Next period was lunch, and I had some leftover sushi from last night. He ruined mint green, but there's no way he's spoiling my sushi.

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Vance looked at me as if I just shoved a cucumber up my arse.

"You're not going? Are you-- are you joking, mate? There's no fucking way you aren't going." He inhaled, and I could tell he'd be lecturing me for the rest of the day, and I just couldn't deal with that.

"I was just joking," I lied, "I'm going. Wanna meet up before so we can go together? We can pick up some gelato on the w--"

But when I looked up he was gone. Typical Vance, I thought.

Still, I went. Picked up tiramisu flavored gelato (which was heavenly when its made fresh), weared my favorite pair of shoes (a strawberry decorated pair of Vans), and a bottle of Jack Daniels from the pantry my mom tried to hide.

When I got to the door, I inhaled, the smell of cigarette smoke and what could be possibly weed filled my lungs.

And that's all I remember.

Next thing I know, I'm in Elliot's bed wearing a sweater that was way too big. I looked at elliot, who was fast asleep, watching his chest rise and fall. He looked so warm and inviting, Ijust wanted to bury my face into his chest.

So i did.

I slowly pushed Elliot onto to his back, careful not to wake him. Then i sat on his thighs and tried to position his arms around, like a hug and layed my face onto his chest and I breathed in.

Oh my god.

Oh my god. Please dont make it stop Please don't take him away from me, was all I could think.

It was euphoria. It felt better than falling asleep after cumming. It felt better than falling asleep after crying for so long. It feels so good. It's so good I cant describe it.