Sebastian's P.O.V.
His head shoots up to look at me directly in the eyes. His two emeralds looking back at me, paralyzing me on the spot. I more or less snap out of it as I go to pull my hand away from his desk so I can leave quickly. Before I get a chance though he grabs my arm.
"Sebastian, wait, I just want to talk. Look kid, I know you still don't get everything and I honestly have no fucking clue why you looked so damn terrified before but I know you enjoyed what we did together." He said probably sounding more desperate than he intended but somehow still managing to sound firm in his words.
"N-no, I did n-not" Shit, why can't I lie better right now. I mean I know that it felt good, like, really good, but he scares me sometimes and I don't know if I'm ok with that. A smirk appears on his face at my answer and my nerves are on high alert. He yanks my arm and I fall forward. He catches me and whispers into my ear as he grabs my ass.
"Are you sure?" His voice is husky and I let out a squeal as he squeezes my ass. He lifts me like I weigh nothing, putting me on his lap so I'm now straddling him. Before I have a chance to try and get off he wraps one arm around the small of my back and pulls me close, his lips crashing against mine as his other hand is now on the back of my neck. He bites my bottom lip and I let out gasp of surprise at the sudden pain. The moment my lips part he darts his tongue deep into my mouth, exploring every inch. I completely lose myself in it, not sure what to do.
It feels good. Why does it feel so good? I can feel myself falling into him, letting the waves of pleasure flow from his touch. It almost tingles on the surface of my skin, seeping into my body and making my heart race. I'm trying to think. Why can't I think?
I start to feel as if I can't breath. I shiver, not from cold, or fear, I don't know from what, actually maybe this is fear but not the kind where I am worried for my life, though maybe it should be. It's a different kind of fear, one that this is the first time I'm experience it. It's like I'm afraid of myself, no, maybe only a part of myself, a part that I'm only just now meeting for the first time but somehow I always knew it was there. I just don't understand, why is it this man? Why is it him that's introducing this part of me to myself? And why, why is part of me enjoying it all?
I feel his hand on my ass start to slide up, his thumb dipping into the lip of my pants, guiding the rest of his hand down my tailbone, his index finger starting to slowly trail down between my cheeks. I don't know what he's doing but for some reason I don't protest as he continues to kiss me. His free hand finding itself playing with my blond locks as it continues to hold our lips together. He continues to engulf me in a kind of pleasure I didn't know two men could have with each other.
My body suddenly jerks in surprise as I feel his finger rubbing my entrance. What the hell is he doing?! I tried pushing on his chest with my hands to get him to stop kissing me so I could speak. But then my entire body tensed and I froze. He slipped his finger inside me. HE JUST SLIPPED HIS FUCKING FINGER INSIDE ME. I don't know what to do, I couldn't move. Why would he do something like that? Isn't that disgusting for him? It was a slightly painful and stung a little, witch I guess is to be expected since NOTHING IS SUPPOSED TO ENTER THERE.
I tried to breath but I couldn't, I was holding my breath and not ready to let go. I know he noticed but he just laughed. What the hell?
"You weren't expecting that were you." He says, his lips now trailing down my neck. Why does he think this is funny? I can tell he's amused but I don't get why. He just left his finger there for a while and it stopped hurting but it still felt strange and I still didn't understand WHY THE HELL HE HAS HIS FUCKING FINGER IN MY ASS.
Then he started to move his finger and it stung a bit again at first but suddenly it starts to be ok. I opened my mouth to finally try and ask him what he was doing but suddenly his finger hit somewhere and a sound came from between my lips that caught me by surprise. My hand went over my mouth immediately as if that would somehow take the sound I just made and shove it back down my throat. I could hear and feel the Captain chuckle against the skin of my collar bone. He lifted his face to mine so that his deep green eyes were looking directly at me.
"Found it." For some reason I had a feeling that this might be how the pray feels when it's being started down by the predator, however stranger yet, I didn't dislike it. His mischievous smile didn't help with that either.
Suddenly out of nowhere though the loud crack and rolling of thunder vibrated across the ship, rippling through me like lightning . On instinct I jump and grabbed onto the captain. I start to shake as my arms are wrapped around him tightly as if I were holding on for dear life. He seems taken aback, not expecting this from me. He removes his finger from me, I didn't move though and just continued to shake and hold him tightly, hiding my face in his shoulder.
God I hate this.
I don't want to be scared but I can't help it. Every time there is thunder like this it makes me think back to that night so many years ago. I remember it all vividly though. Down to the thunder and lightning that just made everything that much more unbearable. Even though I never used to be scared of thunder. After that night, it always affected me this way.
The captain doesn't say anything for a while, seeming to be unsure of what to do. Eventually though, he wrapps his large arms around my small frame and hugs me tightly. His chest is warm and so are his arms. I squeeze him a little tighter and nuzzle my face into his shoulder. I had never felt like this before. This feeling of safety was new to me. I hadn't realized it but I stopped shaking. Then another crack of thunder had me tense and hug the Captain tighter. His arms did the same though and I start to relax again.
"It's um, it's ok." He says in a whisper, seeming unsure of himself. I could tell that he couldn't figure out what to do in this situation. He was trying though and that in and of itself is something I appreciate.
Captain Walker's P.O.V.
Sebastian suddenly latched onto me in a death grip. Pulling himself closer to me and over the bulge in my pants making it even more difficult for me than it already was. I don't think he even noticed though, he seems terrified. I take my hand out of his pants but wasn't sure what else there was that I should do. I kind of like it though, him latching onto me like this. I eventually, when my little problem calmed down a little... which actually isn't that much but I needed to comfort the kid, I wrapped my arms around him. I could visibly see him relax at that, which of course made me smile. I liked that I could do that to him. Make him feel safe in my arms. It was strange. Before I just wanted him for his ass but suddenly... I don't know. I have never been able to make someone feel safe like this before.
Another crack of thunder is heard and he tenses again, latching onto me tighter. I hug him back and fell as if i should say something but I've never done anything like this before.
"It's um, it's ok." Was the best I could do. We don't move much for a while. He just tenses whenever thunder is heard and my grip on him tightens momentarily and he relaxes again.
Even though we have been sitting here for a while I don't want to let go of him and I know he doesn't want to let go of me.
Isum can take care of everything for the time being so I think I can take a break to go sleep for a bit. I put my hands underneath Sebastian's thighs and stand up. He tenses again, probably thinking that I'm going to put him down or ask him to get off me. I'm not going to do that to him though, not when he's like this.
I walked to the side door that lead into my bedroom. He was starting to fall asleep in my arms anyway so I thought this would be a good idea. Though when I tried to lie him down on the bed he didn't let go of me. I don't understand how someone can be so afraid of thunder but I guess we're all afraid of something.
"Please don't go." He says in an almost pleading tone. Shit. I feel a twinge in my chest at the sound of his voice like that. I'm confused because I almost fell aroused by that... ok, I was aroused, but what do you expect when he sounds like that? I take in a breath trying to calm myself down. This is not the time to be feeling like that.
"I won't." I say, leaning down to lie him on the bed. His arms don't let go of their death grip around my neck though and his head was still buried in my shoulder.
"Promise?" He had the voice of a man but still managed to sound like a child. I almost laughed, it was sort of cute.
"Yea, I promise." I say, a small smile I don't realize I'm sporting shines through as he let me put him down on the bed. I take off my shoes and he takes off his own. I start having a bit of trouble since he starts shaking again when a smaller rumble of thunder comes rolling in. I don't like seeing him so scared but a small part of me is happy since I know I can make him feel better.
As soon as my boots are off and so are his I lie down next to him on the bed. He is sitting up but not for long when I pulled him down onto to me and held him close to my chest. He doesn't fight it and wrapped his arms around me tightly. Our legs intertwining as I hold his smaller frame close to my own. I can feel his head lying on top of my chest and his one hand gripping onto my shirt. I started to run my hand through his soft blond locks, my other arm still holding him tight. I can feel his grip on me start to loosen as his breathing becomes more shallow. He is falling asleep. I smile slightly, feeling strangely content.
I find myself getting tired as well, but I wanted to continue playing with his hair like this and listen to his shallow breathing. I glanced down to look at his sleeping face. His pale skin and rosy lips all looked so delicate. However I remembered how he handled a sword. Looks can be deceiving. I didn't really care much about finding out about him before but now it was like he was a puzzle that I wanted to solve. I ended up drifting off to sleep thinking about Sebastian.
Damn, I think I might really be fucked.
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