how to let go

“prologue”

she must keep composure

she mustn’t fall under the weight

of a hundred shattered dreams

a thousand broken promises

and a million empty lies

she has to sit still

smile

or simply look down

to hide the hollowness in her eyes

because the one next to her

doesn’t yet know of the pain

that dreamers call love

so

she must wait

once she arrives in her room

she can let the darkness consume her

she can let the

world

stop

spinning

so she can finally rebalance herself

because she knows

that love brings pain

more so than happiness

in choir

she tries to sing out

but her mouth won’t make noise

in english

she tries to write

but the words won’t make their way to the paper

in gym

she tries to run

but her body won’t move as she commands it

with him

there is no her