I feel like I'm stuck in slow motion,

And everyone else is in fast forward.

Like sugar in warm water,

Dissolving.

Losing myself,

Too something bigger.

Something more powerful.

something .

better.

I get scared knowing that the thoughts are becoming an open ocean.

That I'm seemingly drowning in.

But I don't wanna hurt anyone.

I don't wanna hurt me.

I was so used to relying on other emotions to help carry myself through things.

Now I feel empty.

And I'm left wondering why.

Like I was flying,

Now I'm sinking.

I'm scared to mess up..

To lose my progress,

To lose my friends,

To lose myself.

But good things don't seem to last long for very long for me.

And that's okay.

I've learned to just let things go.

To take their toll,

But things are going so slow,

And I'm going even slower,

Yet somehow it feels like we will collide at a catastrophic speed.

Do you ever feel,

Like there is no transition between these moments?

Like you are thrown and beaten to observe the new situation?

I try to smile through it and to any eye untrained in the understanding of the disturbed youth,

One might think it was genuine.

At times I trick myself,

But the minute I'm alone,

My mind begins to pace and the hollowness fills me.

Sadly I'm not sure how to finish this on a happy note,

I'm not sure I even want to,

Because it would be a lie to say everything has a happy ending,

But I guess for your sake I'll pretend a little longer.