I’ve been having those thoughts again

How many pills to take?

How sharp a knife can get?

Can you overdose on multivitamins?

When I can’t sleep at night, I keep thinking

How much force does it take to crack a skull?

How does a tire feel rolling over a lung?

Does a rope break the skin on a neck as you sway?

When I’m bored and on my own, I keep thinking

How long until I’m found?

How long until They finally show up?

Can I be brought back if I really want to leave?

When I hold this pencil, I keep thinking

What is the cost of a life?

What can be done?

Can I stay with you?

I’ve been having those thoughts again

I love my family

I love the life I live

I just hate how I can’t say it out loud

When I laugh, I have these thoughts

When I cry, I have these thoughts

When I sit still, I have these thoughts

Can I tell them to you?