Things I never understood about love:

I never understood how people could say they loved one person,

Yet hated another.

I was always told that hate was to strong of a word,

That there was no way to hate someone,

Or something,

But somehow we were taught to love to hate and hate to love.

As if both are poison that spreads from one infected mouth to another.

Like a kiss shared between two people who claim to love each other.

I never understood how love was possible.

I mean scientifically love breaks down into C8H11NO2+C10H12N2O+C43H66N12O12S2,

Dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin.

But to much of any or all of these happy chemicals can drive you insane,

Literally.

I never understood how someone could lie so easily about love.

When we’re children we’re told that we will all grow up and find true love,

But we know better now don’t we?

I’ve been head over heals, gut wrenchingly in love.

But I think I overdosed on one to many of my happiness chems,

Not before the rude awakening that not all love is real.

He will stare you in the eye and tell you he loves you,

Yet his mind dreams of your body and not your soul.

She will hit you and scream then claim she is the victim,

Till you comply and cater her every whim.

I believe in love but I’ve never had a taste of it for myself,

So I sit like a child in bed reading these fairytales that I have to remind myself,

Are just tales.

That I do not have a prince coming to whisk me from my tower,

As much as I wish I could come down.

Thieves have tried for my heart and I now fear what could be.

Being frozen by anxiety and shaken by paranoia.

I never understood what love is,

And I really hope that I will soon.

Because another figure climbs up my tower and I fear the possibility of another thief,

Yet dream that it will be my prince,

And that the fairytales won’t be too wrong.