In those few seconds after the words came out of my principal's mouth my mind was still, but that didn't last. I couldn't stop my thoughts from racing. I didn't understand why this had to happen to us. Our dad is dead now, our moms crazy as well as a drunk and we are outcasts. In that moment I had never felt so alone. The only way to truly describe how I felt was something dragging me down into water, no one hearing my suffocated screams, not even J.