Why is there laughing?

It so bright

I see so many smiles.

What did I walk into?

Why is everyone so happy?

Maybe if I smile and pretend

No one will notice

The pain in my head

Maybe if I laugh

No one will notice

The stabbing guilt I feel inside

I try

And I pray

That no one is seeing through

My fake smile

My fake laugh

I'm trying

I don't want to upset

But I made a mess.

Out of my life and I don't know why

Maybe if I cover it up

With smiles and hugs

No one will notice