I think I've had a hiccup,

Even though I've been doing good,

It feels like I’m tracing my steps in a monotonous circle.

I’m growing tired of it.

The holidays are growing closer which means the new year is almost here,

And I am determined to adjust.

I’ve recently decided to begin meditation and an independent self help program,

My mind has been cloudy and I no longer feel ready for the world,

So it reminds me to breathe,

To focus on such a simple task and release my thoughts.

I’m allowing myself to let go of things,

I’m simply overwhelmed,

Overcome with everyday activities and conversations are so routine I can perform them with eyes shut.

And somehow this fills me with the heaviness of anxiety.

That’s why I must push,

Out of my comfort zone and into new things,

New experiences that may remind me that this okay,

That I am okay,

And that with every step back,

There are two steps further.