You are supposed

to be right here

next to me

watching me

helping me

I am selfish I know

but I am mad, at everything

because something

took you away

when you were much needed.

How I am i supposed to grow up

without you mom?

I stole your snuggie

and hugged it

and cuddled it

because i thought

maybe

if i think hard enough

it would be you

and every time i think about it

the more i am confused

why the hell

are you gone

how?

why did you

have to get

cancer

Why you?

you were the most

lovable

hugable

nice

important

person in everyone

you met lives.

Why did you go?

why the hell did you leave me?

leave dad

cloe

kenzie

keegan

why did you

leave

Why cant you come back

i need you

mom

i need you