Luciano’s pov

‘' I want to be alone…. ‘’, ‘’It was nice meeting you’’. Those words were still resonating in my head, I don’t know why they were bothering me. I felt uneasy coming out of the bathroom to reincorporate in my date with Frank, it wasn’t that fun anymore. When I came back to our table, he started talking about…. something I honestly didn’t pay to much attention to. Physically, I was there with Frank, talking to him, laughing with him, eating with him in a nice restaurant, but my mind was traveling through dimensions. I was everywhere but there. Our waiter did his job in a very professional manner, as if the conversation we had never happened. I was amaze by his ability of keeping a straight face the whole time, yet, he kept smiling like he would do to every customer. I tried to be discrete, but sometimes my brain takes over my body without my permission.

I couldn’t stop staring at him, even when Frank talked to me, my eyes would divert from him to Jayden, even if it was for a mere second. I mean, it was hard not to look, I was feeling his gaze rest on me as well. I needed to stop. I was on a date! I was being totally disrespectful with the boy in front of me who took me out and brought me to this place he knew I would like. I just hope he doesn’t notice my brazenness, I didn’t even try to hide it! Where’s my milkshake? I’m going to drink until I get a brain freeze, maybe that way I’ll stop being so bold and stop looking at Jayden right in Frank’s face. I was not his boyfriend but either way, right now, my focus should be on him and not someone else. Although I was doing the exact opposite.

I have no shame. I said internally while shaking my head. But Damn it!! Why did he say that to me in the bathroom? What’s wrong with us being friends? Oh no but the pretty boy wants to be alone, he doesn’t need friends. That’s all crap! why would someone want that? Doesn't he know is always nice to have somebody you could talk to, or have fun together and cherish those moments? I don’t know why I’m getting mad, I’m acting so childish right now. I need to pull my shit together, this isn’t ….

 ‘’Why don’t you take a picture of him?’’  Frank suddenly asked me breaking me from my internal monologue. The straw of my chocolate drink was still in my mouth when I looked at him, he seemed irritated and also had this tone of anger in his voice. I couldn’t blame him, I think I would have acted the same if I was in his position at this particular moment.

 ‘’What? I don’t understand the question.”  I lied to him, why am I doing this? of course I know what he meant.

''Are you seriously asking me that? You have been staring to that waiter the whole fucking time! If you like him that much then go ask him out! I’m out of here!’’  He says as he stands up to make his way out. Everyone in the restaurant was looking to our table but I couldn’t care less about that. I need to fix things with Frank, I get why he’s angry and it’s all my fault.

I took out my wallet to put money on the table as payment for the food. Immediately after that, I run outside ‘’Lolita’s’’ to look for Frank. When I was already in the parking lot, I saw him walking to his car, in that moment I started running, I needed to reach him.

‘’Frank! Wait, don’t go! Please stop’’  Apparently, he heard me because he’s now standing in front of his car without moving. When I catch up, I just stood there behind him without saying anything, he stayed silent as well but turned his whole body to face me, he was frowning clearly out of anger.

 ‘’Frank I’m sorry, it’s just…. h-he reminded of someone I used to know…’’  That was a lie, sometimes lying was necessary. I couldn’t exactly tell Frank from where I knew Jayden, nobody except David knew that. As for the other friends I was playing truth or dare with that night in the tree house, I just told them that it was all bluffing from my part and that I really didn’t do anything, thank God they bought it.

 ‘’It means nothing Frank….’’  That was another lie, it does mean something to me, Jayden and his mystery, I don’t know what is it about him but I’m going to erase him from my mind like …. eventually. He doesn’t want anything to do with me anyways. Besides, there is Frank, I like him and I know he reciprocates the feeling. Even though my heart is not as happy upon seeing him as it is with Jayden, he deserves the chance. Time is everything, I’m sure I’ll like him more than I already do.

''Please believe me. I like you, I’m here with you right? Doesn’t that tell you something? I could have said no to you but I’m here now. You are the one I ……’’   before I could finish the sentence, I feel his already wet lips against mine.

He was kissing me anxiously; his tongue was touching the entrance of my mouth asking permission to go in. I must admit the action caught me by surprise, but I found myself liking that kiss very much. For once, I decided to let myself go. I gladly responded to his request when I opened my mouth so our tongues could meet each other. He positioned both of his hands in my waist so he could be closer to me than he already was. My hands were touching his chest, tugging his shirt with strength. It felt good, really good. It was my first kiss with a boy, it wasn’t that different to the ones from girl’s, with the exception that it was a little bit rougher and hungrier. I don’t know if it was because Frank was angry at me or not but nevertheless, I was enjoying it a lot.

I think a minute passed when we broke apart to breathe. We were looking at each other in the eyes, I could see Frank’s lust in his almost black ones when they change their trajectory to stop in my lips again, ready to devour them one more time. But, I stopped his intentions momentarily. First, there was something I needed to say.

‘’Hold on tiger! We need to talk’’   I said to him while taking a step back so we weren’t that close anymore.

‘’About what?’’   he told me as he gets close to me again, looking down at me all menacing and with a naughty grin on his face. Why is he so tall! I feel so defenseless right now.

''I-I guess you accepted my apologies… I mean after that kiss. What was that for? Don’t get me wrong I liked it…. is just that it was so sudden, I….”

‘’Luciano, I do forgive you’’   he interrupted me at the same time he takes a step forward getting even closer to me   ‘’I’ll believe you this time, just don’t do that again. I don’t like my boyfriend checking out other men or women, I want your eyes focus only on me, understand?’’   and he gives me the boyfriend title again when we haven’t talk about dating yet. He’s a possessive freak…. kind of sexy but definitely freaky.

‘’Woah, hold your horses Eiffel Tower! Who says we are dating?! You are going way too fast here”   I said as I broke from our closeness, seriously, I like him but he needs to slow down. Things cannot always go his way.

‘’Why are we not? I know you like me, you sure enjoyed my French kissing and I can show you more stuff, you only need to say yes''   he says winking.

‘’And I’m sure I will, but not now’’

 ‘’Why not?

‘’Because Frank…. Listen I have known you for a while now but, I don't really know that much about you. Also, I just recently discovered you liked me plus, about three weeks ago I thought I only liked girls so…. What I’m trying to say is that I need time to adjust to this you know. I-I have never…. experienced something with a guy so….’’

‘’How much do you need?  he was crossing his arms as he said that, like he was annoyed by my speech.

‘’I don’t know I…. I’ll tell you this: let me have two more dates, I want to know you more so on the third one, I’ll give you my answer. How does that sound?’’

After hearing that, he sighs as he lowers his head. He was thinking about it. What was there to think? I kept on looking at him until his eyes set on me again to say:

‘’Ok, sounds fair but..... you wouldn’t mind if I give you another kiss now right, just a little one?’’

I just smiled at that question and decided to answer it the way he wanted it. I don’t know what possessed me but I pushed him against his car and kissed him with the same ferocity he did to me earlier. After all, I sometimes like to be in control as well.