I'm sorry brothers,

So sorry lover,

Forgive me father,

I love you mother.

Can you hear the silence?

Can you feel her presence?

I'll wait for her to return,

Or I'll join her down bellow.

Why not live in happiness?

I fucking love the pain!

The sins turn into ash,

I couldn't forget the crash.

I wish you could see me now,

Living in misery and self torturing.

The pills no longer work,

My mind's finally stopped.

I'm still sane, not crazy yet.

I like to think you've helped me.

I don't try to hide them.

The cuts from a blade.

I don't fight it anymore,

You left and now I'm hopeless.

I was never good with goodbyes.

Tried to kill myself,

Funny how I'm still around.

Life hasn't been good to me,

And I've only been missing you.

I still think of you.

When it's time,

I'll tell them I'm with you,

And I'll call your name,

Just as I take the final breath.

Then I could die with you.