Look at me and listen close so, I can tell you how I feel before I go. I look into the stars at night and think about all the things we did. How much I miss the day we said we would run away to Iceland and raise Huskies. We made life seem great even when we were going through tough times. The abuse that you went through and the times I'd lay in your bed and say you were the strongest I knew. My mother would do cocaine and smoke her life away, you would hold me tight and say I was a soldier. I loved meeting you on the train singing Blink 182 as loud as we could, giggling at how people looked at us. I miss your smile, it was contagious. I always thought you were the cutest thing I've ever seen, how you'd look up at the sky and just smile like you knew your future would be bright. During the winter you would say that the world looks so alone and beautiful, while the summer looked calm and pure. No matter how negative I was you had the affect to make me smile, I miss it so much. I miss you sweet words and playful gestures. I remember the time I told you that I would die for you and it was too hard to think of letting you go. I miss the adventures we took and the places we've been. The times I would lay hopeless and broken you were always with me. I still smile on rainy days knowing if you were here you would run through the drops singing old punk songs. I thought you were crazy for dying your hair bright pink, but for some reason it fit you. You were always reckless. No one ever imagined like you. I miss those blue eyes with hope that sent me chills. You were the only one for me and it still hurts. You told me once that I had more to live for, that I shouldn't give up my dreams for stupid reasons. Maybe I fell back behind, over thinking was a skill of mine. I just miss you being here, keeping me in line and out of trouble. You always knew what I wanted to hear when I was ready to end it all. You would cry when you saw cuts. I miss everything I fell for, and everything that ended too fast.