So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me off guard, red handed. I need something else, I need a new high. Would someone please just give me, just hit me. Knock me out so I can go back to sleep. I'll be just fine pretending I'm not and I'm far from lonely. I need a new hook, a new dream to get my mind off of this. Asleep I still see you lying next to me, I stopped your heart from beating. A blade two inches deep and that's all I've got. So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me. I'm far from lonely. I guess I remember every word you shoved at me. You tried so hard to throw them down my throat. I'm losing weight and body heat, I still am so empty. I need something else, would someone please just help me. I can laugh but all I wanted inside is still far from lonely. I'll be just fine pretending I'm not.