I held onto her soft pale hand listening to the soft raindrops pounding on the glass outside of the white room. I stared at the green spiked lines on the monitor holding my palm on her chest feeling the musics beats. Thump..thump..thump...My mind was fuzzy from the lack of sleep but I wasn't ready to leave her alone..not yet. My heart inside my chest was standstill hoping I didn't have to say goodbye but the words of awakens to the comatose woman. I swore my heart was slowly breaking in half as I looked at the beautiful face in front of me, you could still see the past drugs effects on the now aged face. "I could have helped you, You could be awake and healthy. It's my fault, all my fault. I'm so sorry!" I cried out letting the tears roll down my cheeks clutching onto the hand more firmly. Maybe I will never be strong enough to let go, I'm afraid of being alone. 'The promises I made, I held onto each of them, never broke a single one.' I thought now more dizzy then earlier. This is such a waste, my wishes won't come true. I'll only have the past. Thump....thump....thump....I felt under my trembling palm. I heard an aching noise, letting more tears roll down and making everything paralyse. I froze in time. The monitor buzzed with flat line no longer showing the green high-low mountains. "No! No no no no...please god no!" I yelled now standing. A doctor came in and held me to his chest as I was trying to run back to the bed, tears pooling down my face. I'm not ready to let go! I don't want to leave her, this can't be the end! Please! My cries wasn't going to bring her back, they wouldn't give her life. "Nothing won't shine! The rain will storm the outside in haunting cries for eternity!" I screamed out into the room. I can't live without her! "Please! Wake up!" I cried out now on my knees on the floor with the doctor behind me holding my body close. "I can't..." I said quietly watching another doctor shutting off the monitor. Please..The terrible truth I prayed wasn't reality. We walked out of the room, I kept my head turned as the doctor turned off the main lighting leaving the emergency light glowing in the corner with the monitor and breathing machinery. I couldn't breath, I felt my body fall tense. I fell to my knees crying letting new tears roll down stained cheeks.Please..return to me.