Am I better off dead?

Brother, I'm sorry I've let you down,

I fought this war alone so I could come home.

I lost control of myself,

I fight myself for the sleep that I truly deserve,

How can I follow the instructions of life?

When I know I'll come home to you.

Oh Brother, my brother,

I'll fight this war alone,

I'll fight my mind if that is what it takes.

The night is closing in,

There's a hole wearing thin,

Where have I gone too far?

Self torturing once again,

I don't remember how it feels to be on my own,

But I believe that I'll make it through.

Cause' I have you to come home to.

Lost forever until I've won this,

Let them talk crap,

I'll fight this war on my own.

Brother, wait for me.

The scars on my skin,

I wish you could see how deep they feel,

I've got skilful wounds,

But I've got the Motivation,

Cause' I've got you to come home to.

I'm losing myself,

I'm losing hope,

But Brother I won't lose you.

I'll fight this war alone.