FADING

She smiles and lets out a laugh but she knows it won’t last. It never lasts she knows this but it gets them off her trail of sorrow and pain. Everyone looks and stares but she knows they don’t see her fear her sorrow her pain. She pushes them away for fear they too will hurt. So she sits there fading away just like she wanted she blends into the halls no one gives her a second glance. She wonders if she ends it all will people even remember the girl all dressed in black fading in the back of the class with her hood up to hide her face? Will they remember the fading girl who cuts her wrist? Will they remember the faded girl with a fake glint in her eyes and a ever fake fading smile on her painted lips? Will they remember the signs she made? Will they remember the girl who talks to everyone even though she herself wants no one? She doesn't think so she believes they will go on without a care for she was faded from the beginning so they can’t possibly have noticed her. But maybe if they looked closer they could have witnessed the girl whom eyes held the sad glint whom’s skin was marked with red from stretch marks to pimple to cuts maybe just maybe if they looked closer they could have seen past the happy and sad and had a glimpse of the fading girl right before she faded away into oblivion hoping that no one cared so her choice wouldn’t have been a mistake she was no longer there after all so she could not see another soul was in her body and all the faded girl did was sleep ,sleep and hope to be forgotten forever.