DISGUSTION

I feel it being shoved down my throat the fear i feel will start to reel out of control their judging eyes upon me they may talk like they support me but in reality they think i’m disgusting i didn't choose to be this way i was just born this way you can’t pray it away or ignore the fact that i'm not straight it's not your life it's mine yet you still try to grab my collar and pull me around this is how i live my life now in constant fear of what the others will do if they found out most of my family don't even accept it what happens if i find the one and it's not a he but a she? Will i have to fear for her safety as well as mine? To fear our safety from my own family again? I thought we were passed that yet were not? Thats bullshit! I'm still the same and you say you're a new christian? Did you know the bible condones racism sexism slavery and much more? Your ignorant and stupid i'm still me i'm still us i'm still that person you know but just because i came out pan genderfluid i'm now found disgusting by you? I'm now just another person you don't know? I want to scream in your faces and i want to slap some sense into you now my friends their eyes judging though supportive words leave their lips just say what you think! No matter if your supportive or not i'm still me and i'll still live my life the way i want to and no one will change that! Yet they try and try but it doesn't work what's next gonna send me to the looney bin? Cause i'm already in a looney bin i'm in hell stop lying yet speak your mind haha i'm already crazy i was born crazy but you are the ones who drove it higher.