I AM FROM

I am from shattered, breaking glass to crying and lying to screaming and shouting.

I am from bruises and bleeding to pitch blackness and hiding.

I am from poor and crumbling town with large man at nearly every corner.

I am from white powder and beer cans littering the floor.

I am from a smoke filled room

I am from hiding wounds and abuse to another town where no one knows.

I am from no friends and no adults to turn to.

I am from afraid and shy and friendless.

I am from blaring music to drown out the screaming.

I am from belt beating for protecting someone dear to me.

I am from a seemingly perfect home, but it’s far from true.

I am from old dirty shirt and pants to a cleaner white dress just to go to church.

I am from the priest saying ‘’god loves us all and everything is his way.’’.

I am from my thoughts running wild from sad to rage.

I am from the words ‘’if he loved me and mom why the drugs, why the beatings, why the bullying?’’.

I am from night time walks to get away from the screaming.

I am from suicide thoughts.

I am from blurry vision.

I am from tears.

I am from death.

I am from cuts.

I am from blood red.

I am from a living nightmare.

I am from blood filled water.

I am from a killer.

I am from a frown.

I am from the lowest self esteem.

I am from suicide attempts.

I am from failure.

I am from a new beginning.

I am from a new home.

I am from a small group of friends.

I am from a small smile to a large grin.

I am from music for fun instead of to drown out the noise.

I am from long sleeves and pants to t-shirts and shorts.

I am from technology.

I am from success.

I am from no longer pretending.

I am from no longer a happy act.

I am from a sincere happiness. 

I am from reading for fun.

I am from a good school.

I am from a dysfunctional yet happy and unique family.

I am from fun.

I am from a beach with gentle rocking waves and the smell of salt water.

I am from lovely adopted siblings who treat me well.

I am from a happy life.

I am from a killer to a citizen.

I am from an angelic melodic voice sung for fun and for happiness instead to drown out the pain and yelling.

I am from lowest to low self esteem to even higher.

I am from devil’s advocate to angelic presence.

I am not ‘’freak’’ ‘’monster’’ ‘’brat’’ ‘’ugly’’ or anything bad.

I am ‘’unique’’ ‘’beautiful’’ ‘’special’’.

I am the total opposite of what i was called and though i may be insane…. I’m happy.

I am Kate Lynn Allen

I am proud to be unique and insane because I AM ME