As I approached my house, I couldn't help but stop, as I felt a sudden surge of pain as I thought of Fumiko.
"Fumiko"
As I said her name I felt my heart racing. With each hard pound it made, I felt a burning desire to hold her in my arms.
"What's wrong with me." I whispered, trying to stuff those feelings away.
An image of her sleeping on the sofa and hugging a pillow came into my head suddenly, which drew a smile on my face.
As I stepped onto my porch, I turned to look back into the blackened night and I couldn't help but wonder if this was the first hint of love.
***
My eyes fluttered open as I awoke on the couch in the living room of my house, I blinked back as I came to realize where I was and also the fact that Sora was gone.
"Sora" I whispered as I wrapped my arms around a sofa cushion, remembering how he had done with my waist.
"Fumiko your awake." I heard my mother say as she got up from her seat.
"How did I....where did he go?-"
"Sora brought you here"
"Sora.....he was here?"
"Yeah, you fell asleep at his house. Mind telling about that?"
"How do you-"
"He told me." She said coming to sit beside me and placing a hand on my head.
"I've been visiting Sora for the past few weeks. He's really lonely all the time, and I thought it would be nice if I could give him some of my time. He really is a nice person."
"I know he is." She sighed shaking her head, "but you should have at least told us about this instead of letting us worry. I thought something had happened to you when you didn't come home on time."
"I'm sorry"
"I know"
"Can I still go and see him, mom?" I said in fear she wouldn't allow me.
Please mom.
The thought of not being able to see him again brought pain to my chest.
What if I can't look into his eyes anymore or hear his warm laughter nor see his bright smile.............
"Fumiko I think-"
"Please mom, I have to see Sora." I said in a low voice laced with desperation.
My mother scratched the side of her head, and gave me a light smile, "Okay, Fumiko."
"Really!" I said elated as I jumped off the Sofa and stood in front of her.
"Yeah, but you have to come home early. I don't want this to affect your academic work."
"Thanks mom!" I cried as I jumped around and gave her a warm hug. I immediately ran towards my room, lightly bumping into my father.
"What the- Fumiko, slow down!" He said turning to me.
"Moriko, what's with her?" I heard him say to my mother.
"Takeshi, she's just a girl you know."
"What's that suppose to mean?"
***
I sat on my bed with my hands on my knees, slouching. I couldn't get the picture of Fumiko out of my mind.
"Why can't I stop thinking of her?" I whispered quietly, stirring the silence in the room. Then suddenly I felt a soft pain hit me in the chest which made me fall back on my bed. As I clenched my chest, I felt warmth flush over my body and into my face.
I stayed in that position, looking up at the ceiling, unable to move, as I felt my heart racing when I saw an image of Fumiko floating across in my head.
I was that way for the longest of moments, unable to fall asleep. As I clenched onto my chest tighter, feeling my own heartbeat, the way it skyrocketed, I felt a growing desire to hold her. That was when I realised that, I had fallen for her.
I think I have fallen for you Fumiko........
As I came to this realization, I sat up and released the grip I had on my chest.
How could it be that I have fallen for her......?
No I can't, it's not right! Fumiko's just a child, how can I harbour these feelings.....
But have I really.....
No!
I suppose, the reason I feel this way is because I'm alone most of the time. I suppose the thought of her warms my heart because she is so caring.
Yes that must be it!
How could I have thought that I had fallen for Fumiko....
"It's only in my mind." I whispered, my words barely audible to my own ears. Even though I had uttered those words, there was still a hint of doubt in my mind.
***
I awoke to a bright morning, the next day and I decided that I would start it off by ploughing one of my seed beds.
"The cabbages are fine, and so are the tomatoes. Maybe I should start with the carrots...." As I stood outside my house rambling, I heard fast paced footsteps approaching me. As I spun around, I was surprised to see Fumiko as she ran towards me. I outstretched my arms and caught her, pulling her close to me. As soon as I embraced her, my breathing became uneven. The warm feeling of her in my arms was so comforting that my heart drummed so loudly I could hear it ringing in my ears.
"Sora" she whispered so delicately, that I had a sudden burning desire to hold her closer. As I pulled her tighter into my arms, a surge of heat over took my body and my heartbeat skyrocketed. I found it that I couldn't resist the urge to smell her hair, which had a light scent of flowers.
"Fumiko" I said softly back. Then suddenly the mention of her name made my feelings intensify.
Why do I have these feelings?
And why are these feelings so intense?
A sudden soft pain hit my heart as I realized what it was.
I have fallen..... for you
I couldn't deny it anymore...
I had fallen in love with Fumiko.
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