I then wake up in a cold sweat,still shaken from the nightmares.I try to forget these thoughts that circulate through my mind ,Though it is useless as the thought of her flash in my mind like slides in a film.I've been having these nightmares for a year now and I never understood why,or if I am ever meant to.Though,I assume it's because today marks the eight year anniversary of her being presumed dead,though her body was never found nor recovered.

The people of the village believe she was killed by an animal,though during hunting season every carnivorous animal that was killed was cut open during the first two years of her disappearance though no body or bones were found resembling those of a child.

She was just 7 years old years old when she disappeared, and even if we were close friends to the point where we were inseparable, I lost her I can no longer sleep at night without thinking of what would've happened if I had decided to be by her side that fateful day.

Her two brothers, kurou and Cutro tell me that its not my fault and that I'm not the one to blame but I know this already I just wish I could have done something to convince her to stay with us, to stay with me.

I usually spend my weekends alone in my cottage in the outskirts of the village. Though,because of the so called "occasion" my two childhood best friends Hope and Faith stop by to keep watch of me so I don't do anything to irrational. they don't understand why I want to be alone,or why I never show my face or why I barely speak,it's not that I can't speak I can speak just fine,I just don't don't think I have anything good to say anymore.I never did have a normal family,my twin brother and my mom are both dead,my older brother Reiu is hundreds of miles away being the head of the royal army,and my father....my father is a coward, he was scared of me even when i was a newborn.

After Hope and Faith left I continued my weekend as usual.I watered the herbs and flowers,washed the dishes,and hung the clothes out to dry.

Though,when i went out that evening to bring the clothes in before the storm,I saw it. I saw those deep emerald green eyes staring at me from the forbidden Forest.

"this can't be,can it?" I repeat those words in my head over and over never sure if it was "her" or not."Hello?" as soon as I speak the eyes disappear.

"H-hey! w-wait up!" I start running towards the area of which I saw the eyes.When I reach the edge of the forest I stop,considering whether if I should press forward to find the owner of the painfully familiar eyes or if I should turn away, and pretend I saw nothing within the forest of which the village was advised to not enter.With an aching feeling in my stomach,I start running into the forest hoping to find whatever or whoever those eyes belonged to.