It gets harder and harder to hide it, the more I get to know him, the more I love him. His name is Ray, he is handsome, he kind of looks like the jock character in bad romance movies, I can hardly take my eyes off of his muscles, he isn't actually dumb, he is quite smart, the teachers love him too. He can't handle alcohol, he is clumsy when he is dancing and he has pet rats, which is strange, but I'm so in love I think it is adorable. I know that he likes to workout, he goes to the gym on the weekends. Every time he accidentally touches me my heart skips a beat, when he smiles I want to hug him, even though I'm not the clingy type. Two members of my friendgroup suspects that I'm hiding something, Stacy the only girl in the group cought me grinning every time I manage to make Ray laugh. Dustin is alo suspicous of me, because I've been having time engaging in conversations about girls for a while now, and I always find some excuse why I don't want go to a club with them. 

"Eddie, I'm throwing a party tonight, are you coming?" Jason, one of my good friends snapped me out of my thoughts.
"Of course, I wouldn't miss it!"
"Cool, I invited a few people from other classes, I think you know them" He answers with a smile on his face.
"Who did you invite?"
"Tessa, Maya, Lily, James and Ray"
"Yeah, I think I talked to everyone a couple of times"
"Good, see you at seven at my place!" He says as he waves goodbye.
"Right, at seven"
Oh crap, Ray is gonna be there too! What if I get drunk and tell my secret to everyone? Even worse, what if I make a move on Ray, and he will hate me for it? Well this is going to be interesting. In the evening, I start getting ready, I stand in front of my closet for a long time, like a teenage girl prepearing for her first date. It's just a party, but I want him to like me, even though I doubt he is gay. In the end I decide on a blue shirt and ripped jeans, very original I know, but I don't have flashy clothes, so it will do.

The music was way too loud at the party, the living room became a dance floor, there was a lots of alcohol, but I didn't drink too much. The company was great, but I couldn't talk to anyone, because, if I shout over the noise now, I won't be able to talk tomorrow. Ray is here too, he's wearing a band T-shirt and black pants, he looks hot in it. I want to touch his muscles so bad! What am I thinking?! I have to calm down. The host finally turns the music down.

"Hey everyone, let's play truth or dare!" He shouts, I can tell he is a bit drunk.

We all agree, no one has any better ideas. I sat next to James on the sofa, I don't know him well, all I know is he used to date Stacy's sister. An empty beer bottle was placed at the middle of the circle and we started playing. There were a few interesting dares, Sam had to do a handstand, Maya had to sit on Ray's lap, which made me a little  jealous and Stacy had to kiss Jason. I didn't have to do anything interesting for a couple of rounds,  I had to kiss Lily once, the other time I had to tell something about my childhood. But that dindn't last long...

"Truth or Dare?" -Stacy asked.
"Truth" I said seemingly calm but my heart was racing.
"What are you hiding from us?" -She asked.
"What is this question? Why are you asking in front of everyone?" -I said perhaps more nervously than I should have.
"It can't be that bad"- She said.
"You can't know for sure..."
"Did you commit a crime?" -Jason asked.
"What? Of course not!"
"Then what?"
"Look, we don't judge, but you should say something, the clock is ticking!"- Said Stacy.
"Okay, I give up!"
"Finally!"
"I'm gay" I said looking at my shoes, I was too scared to look up.
"For a minute I thought you were hiding something terrible"- said Dustin- "That explains a lot"
" It's okay, we still love you!"- Said Jason.
"I had a feeling it would be something like that, we support you. Right boys?" -Said Stacy.
"Of course"
"Yes"
"Why would we have a problem with it?"
"Thank you"- I said with a smile.

I was relieved that everyone accepted me. The game continued and we all had fun, I was much more relaxed. Everything has to end once including my peace. The bottle landed on Ray, he chose dare.

"Kiss Eddie!"- said Stacy.

That cought everyone off guard. Stacy and Dustin shared a smile, as if they knew he was my crush. He was a bit hesitant, but the boy stood up from his seat and bent down to me. My heart almost juped out of my chest, I waited for the kiss. He lifted my chin with one hand and kissed me. Wow, he is a good kisser. His lips were soft and sweet, it was the best kiss I've ever had. When we  patred I acted on an impulse and kissed him back. To my greatest surprise, he didn't pull away, he genty put his tongue in my mouth. I let him take the lead, it felt so good, for a moment it felt like we were the only people in the world. I ran my hand trough his hair and he put his hand on the back of my head.

"Get a room!"- someone shouted.

We stopped kissing, I was blushing. He smiled at me.

"Call me later"- He whispered in my ear.

 

Ray went back to his seat and the game continued, but neither of us could stop smiling.