"Just fuck off! I don't love you!"

She blinked, pulling away like I'd slapped her.

Fuck.

"Oh," she whispered, taking another step back.

No! That's not--

I reached for her arm. "No, wait, Raven, I didn't--"

She jerked away. "Don't."

My eyes burned, and I fought the urge to claw at the pain in my chest. That's not what I meant. Fuck. Rave, don't leave me. Please. I searched her eyes for a... I don't know... For something. But she had completely shut down.

Of course none of the good words like "stay" or "I love you" left my lips. No, I just fucking let her walk away. I just stood and watched as the only good thing I had ever found walked out of my life.

But as much as it hurt, I couldn't help but resign myself to the belief that I don't deserve a love like that. I never will.