I do not promote self harm . I just suffer from it and this story is simply one that I created with some help from stories about my own life. This story may be triggering to some. So I don't recommend reading my novel if you suffer from self injurious behaviors. But I do recommend that you try counseling or behavioral therapy . I have personally been through programs such as MAST and TBS which I have personally found helpful. Granted you may not find these programs helpful but there are millions of programs out there that could help you so don't give up hope. To my readers if you are going through a hard time , you are going to get through it and everything is going to get better. Keep in mind when you get through it you will rise up stronger than ever .