Do you know how many times I wanted to cry but couldn’t?

My eyes got red, almost dripping with tears

I would make excuses and go to the bathroom

I would want to let the tears flow

But I couldn’t

I wasn’t  brave enough to do it

If I cried there would be too much evidence

Red, swollen eyes

Unceasable sobbing 

Everywhere people will say; 

"I would cry whenever I get into an argument"

I will secretly say, "Wow I could never do that"

It wasn’t because I was strong

I was just too weak