What am I writing? I'm very unsure, I've written a lot. I have a lot of stories. And the older I get the more these stories change. I dont know if they are better or worse. My name i guess is neva I dont spell my name with a capital n because im a bitch like that. This feels weird to write, but we're gonna go with it. so. Yeah.

I read a lot of webtoons and manga, i used to watch a lot of anime but i dont really do that anymore. It's weird cause it's like I have a lot of shit to do yet I'm always bored.

I feel like everythings a chore. I think way too much.. I think about other people, I think about other things, other places, myself. I'm definitely a "wonderer" idk.

I'm very funny if you get to know me, I also like to be a little self obsessed.. Cause it's funny. Sometimes I'm proud of things I shouldn't be..

Im proud of my horrible hygiene

I'm proud of the amount of times i've been to the hospital

I'm proud of the amount of times a doctor or therapist has told me something was wrong with me.

I know I'm different but literally everybody is. Everybody is living in their own world doing their own shit and living their own life. And I guess I'm just there. I wanna be something I know there's no way in hell I wanna be like my parents.

School.. College.. Job.. Marriage.. Child.. Work.. Work.. Work.. Death..

Yeah no way.

I wanna have fun, I wanna meet people, I wanna be happy, I wanna be shitty, I wanna make sum enemies.. Eh scratch that part but you get the point.

Wattpad.. I heard a lot about wattpad in 2020 damn that was a year. I know everyone said it was a shitty and horrible year and of course I understand but.. Was it really that bad? I mean hey it was kinda hella fun.. I mean so many people blew up in 2020 so many things relating to pop culture and youtube, twitch, tiktok blew up. I mean we can not forget about the DREAM NOT FOUND- i remember my friend would show me so many wattpad stories of that.

Damn. 2020 was a crazy year..

Wattpad again. So, yeah 2020 was when i rlly got into all the webtoon and BL shit and stuff. Obviously I got obsessed. It was like a really bad drug. Highly addicted. One of my favorites that I STILL READ is Semantic Error, not sure if you've heard of it. If not literally go search it up.. Rn. I'm waiting.

Now before we keep goin. Pull up a chair and get comfortable.. Because this is the uh um uh random shit i won't burn. : )