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I was at the airport waiting to board the flight. Man! All those security checks test every drop of your patience. Even though my dad kept on talking about whether I packed all the things I needed and other stuff, I couldn’t shake off my nervousness I was able to hear my heart beat clearly. For the past few months I have waited excitedly for this day, but today I started freaking out; this is the first time I’m traveling to a different place and alone. I have always been a shy and timid person and my friend circle has never been more than two people or so and they also, as time passed have been out of touch, so, basically I have no friends that doesn’t mean I’m lonely or something I enjoy my own company and I have a deep conversations with people around me but I never share any emotional bond or connection with them. I used to actually wonder when I was young how people can stay as friends for so many years and have different kinds of friends like best friends, friends I take advice from, friends with whom they do gaming with, friends with whom they go clubbing etc., I wondered maybe I was not cut out for friendships or relationships either, my past relationships have never been for more than 6 months’. My boyfriend’s thought I was too much of a nerd; actually they were not wrong. I love spending my time reading, but that doesn’t necessarily include academic books. I feel sorry for those people who don’t understand how amazing reading a book makes one feel, it makes you travel through the world of characters you can feel all those emotions they feel, you fall in love with some characters, and you befriend some of them so much that you feel you don’t need all those phony people around you. But now I want to try to befriend people at the university and I hope I can experience different things and try to do things differently. I will try to change myself, I should try to be more social, this was my main idea of choosing a college in a different city away from my parents.

While I was thinking all these things, my dad shook me out of my thoughts and said it was boarding time. I bid farewell to my dad. My parents are not orthodox people, but they are not liberal either; there are certain topics which should never be mentioned in front of them.

I got on the plane after settling down. I thought I would watch something so I started browsing through the movie list as nothing caught my interest and decided to take a nap as it was only a two-hour flight.

After getting off the plane and collecting all my luggage, I took a cab directly to the apartment which was near my university, which I was going to share with a senior of the same university I have rented an apartment instead of college dormitories because they have curfew time and no privacy. I hope my roommate is a friendly one and not someone who keeps the room messy. I hope that we get along well, though I don’t know who it is, but I just feel like I’m going to like her, maybe something like a hunch.

ECO STAY was written on the apartment in silver embossed letters. I wired the cab fare and got into the apartment, my room number is 109, when I reached the room, I knocked on the door. I could hear footsteps getting closer and

Creak!

The door opened slowly.

What the Heck!

How can someone be so good-looking, she was tall with raven colored pixie cut hair and ocean blue eyes I can say she had those ABS under her black T-shirt, she’s hot.

I stood there without saying anything; she raised her eyebrow. Ugh! This is awkward I think she understood I was checking her out.

I stuttered that I was her new roommate.

She started walking into the house saying that she will show my room and to make myself comfortable. As expected my dad chose an expensive looking apartment even though I told him that I’m fine with any normal looking rooms he insisted on me staying here saying that a peaceful environment is prerequisite for better mental health and while studying you don’t have any distractions. I just didn’t like this, I don’t like when my dad does everything for me, I want to do all things by myself but here I am. Then I remembered we hadn’t introduced ourselves.

Hi, I’m Dianthe, you can call me Dee.

Milan, you can call me Mille

Milan……hmm…….as in the city of Milan, I asked her with a teasing look on my face.

Well, long story short, my parents met in Milan and fell in love, had me there……so……..that’s how I got this name. It’s more like those romance novels that teenagers read.

It sounds romantic, but it doesn’t sound true, though, and aren’t you a teenager, too I said mockingly.

She paused and looked at me for a second and said isn’t that believable everybody believes it when I say that.

Then what you just said is not true?

Hmm……your room is here and you have a bathroom connected to your room and please don’t make a mess of the drawing-room and kitchen I’m kind of a clean freak.

She said that to me and walked into her room and closed the door.

I felt a little sad or maybe disappointed that my dream of having a good roommate with whom I could have fun was shattered. I thought maybe I offended her by staring at her when I first saw her, I agree that was so weird, even I think I’m weird now. I let out a sigh and walked into my room, there is so much to unpack and I have to go out and see what stores we have around here and get some groceries too.But all I did was jump onto the soft bed and stare at the ceiling and doze off.

By the time I woke up it was 7 o'clock in the morning. Shit! I don’t even know when I fell asleep, the last thing I want now is to be late on the first day of college. I showered real quick, and wore blue jeans with a white blouse, a classic matching that can never go wrong; it’s a quick fix I threw a hoodie over it.

As I walked out of my room, I peeked into Mille’s room, thinking maybe we could go together to college, but it seemed she had already left. I pouted and wondered if there was a curriculum where juniors and senior students share the same classes. I just want to make sure that she hasn’t thought of me as a weirdo; we gotta share this god damn apartment room for 4 years now.