Emotion is complicated. Emotion connects two beings together, it's a bond that they share. Emotions can bring people together and yet rip them apart so easily. What would happen if one lost emotion. Would they cut themselves off completely from the world? Would they have any will to live? Would they miss it? Emotion is something that you sometimes wish would dissapear and yet cannot live without. How do people feel so easily and yet it's so complex. What if we all got caught in it so deep as if we cannot reach the surface. As if you were sinking.
I've allways been sinking...
Fresh air is so precious. If only I could reach it. If only I didn't dive so deep.
I wake up on my bed covered in sweat. I keep having tha same dream over and over of me drowning in the middle of the ocean. Why are they allways so vivid? I actually thought I was going to die this time. I know it's just a dream but why does it keep bugging me. I feel like there is something missing. Some piece of the dream that I'm not seeing. Shit. Why are dreams so easy to forget?
It's 7:30 allready? If I'm late again miss Clair is gonna be pissed. I don't get why school is so important when I'm going to fail at life anyway. I don't have any friends. I don't like people. People can make you feel important and break you so easily. The closer I get to someone the more they hurt me. Once it got so bad I had to get homeschooled for a few years. I'm lonely, but loneliness is the only friend I need.
I don't know how to feel properly. I can't feel or else I break.