Josh and i have been best friends since childhood. Today he introduced his girlfriend. At the coffey , "laina come here", Josh shouted while waving his hand for me to come in. Walking to the table, I saw that he was with a girl sitting next to him. I felt something was wrong. That is when he drops the news that the girl next to him is his girlfriend. They were together for half a year. He said she-Yara did not want anyone to know their relationship because of the rumors spreading around them.

While they were talking, I was thinking about when we were still in grade six. When I started to think of him as my crush all this year, I still thought of him as my crush. All year I stopped all my attempts to confess because i knew it would ruin our friendship. Now i truly need to forget what i feel about him. Two hours passed, we all talked about the past that i wanted to forget. We said goodbye to each other.

Two weeks passed. I got a call from Josh saying they had broken up. He said she called him early this morning saying they should break up, then hung up the phone call. Hearing them break up, I felt a huge relief in my chest while celebrating their break-up. I could hear him crying on the phone. When the call ended, I called yara and still asked if it was true that she wanted to break up with Josh.

While hearing the reason why she wanted to break up with Josh,"I can feel and see in your eyes that you are hurt. When Josh introduced me as his girlfriend because of his reaction to not knowing what you-laina felt towards him. " I second thought, being next to a man not knowing or feeling what his friend felt towards him", I felt guilty about being happy that they broke up. But i still said that "it is my fault, that i cant confess my own feelings to him..."

That call ended with yara decision and still did not change. She still wanted to break up with Josh. Laine, on the other hand, gives her apology for the situation she created. After this, Laina called Josh and told him that she would do everything she could do to help them back together, but Yara still wanted them to break up.

After 1 month

Laina got a call from Josh saying there is someone i want you to meet. At the restaurant after they talked, Laina wanted to talk to Josh after Josh accompanied his new girlfriend. Laina confesses her feelings to Josh and also tells him everthing about what she and Yara talked about on the phone one month ago. Laina left Josh foundout and did not hear any word from left.

Days, weeks and months pass. There is no communication between Laina and Josh.

3 months after the confession, Josh found out that Laina had left for another country. Laina's cousin came to his house to give her the letter that Laina left for Josh to read after her departure.

Josh, I know when i confess my feelings to you, the friendship we are protecting will break to the point where we cant go to the same place while not being comfortable with each other. But now I confess i think we both know that this is not the right time for this. You are in a relationship, and also you just broke up with Yara and I know i was the reason it happened. For all the things we have done together, I want to cherish it to the bottom of our hearts, sSo, for now, my feelings for you are still here. I want to go to another country to heal myself and to fix our broken friendship when I go back with no other feelings for you rather than a best friend.

From your best friend-Laina